Unashamed

I have not much

To offer You

Not near what You deserve

But still I come

Because Your cross

Has placed in me my worth

Oh, Christ my King

Of sympathy

Whose wounds secure my peace

Your grace extends to call me friend

Your mercy sets me free

And I know I'm weak

I know I'm unworthy

To call upon Your name

But because of grace

Because of Your mercy

I stand here unashamed

I can't explain

This kind of love

I'm humbled and amazed

That You'd come down

From heavens heights

And greet me face to face

Here I am at Your feet

In my brokenness complete

Turn to Jesus

What happened at work last Thursday pretty much caused some upheaval within me. I was pretty lost and emotional the next few days. I have no idea why. Maybe I've painted too pretty a picture of us humans only to get disappointed when I see the ugly side of humans. And maybe emotions pile up when I have to say farewell to two people within 5 days, more so about Michelle who will be away for 6 months. And through all these, I guess I was so clouded by emotions that I fail to see where Christ is in this. Instead of running towards Him to seek guidance, I chose to run away, getting myself distracted with outings after outings so that I don't have to deal with it, only to realise that at the end of the day, I'm still feeling affected by something which I can't identify.

But I guess I've come to realise, life's like that. No matter how much I want to believe the goodness in everyone, there will come a point in time where we will have to deal with difficult people, people who are difficult to love. I was thinking, my time in NS was much much worse as compared to what I am facing now. So why do I react like that? Maybe many people have been very nice to me, so much so that I forget how it feels like to be stabbed in the back like that. But ultimately, the lesson for me here is to really learn to forgive. To forgive, let go and love that person as God loves us. It is easy to say, but definitely very difficult to do. Humans are afterall humans. It is not easy for us to overlook the wrongs people did to us, especially those whom you don't have a good impression of to begin with. And I am facing that very problem. Because I've been talking so much about love, reading so much about love, singing so much about love, I thought everything will just come naturally. But I guess this is one lesson which I have to learn, that it is not as easy to love thy neighbour as thyself, not easy to forgive as we say we want to.

So how, then, can I let go? Because I so want to forgive, so want to love, but don't know how to? And I've got my answer today. And the answer is so so simple. Something which I should have done in the very first place. And that is to...

Turn to Jesus

Jesus my Saviour

My Lord and My King

Insulted, rejected

for all of our sins

Knowing pain

He went through it all

So I turn to Jesus

He's there when I fall

Lord I need You

Lord I cry out to You

My only refuge

From this world

Lord I need You

Lord I cry out to You

My only shelter,

My hope and Saviour

Jesus my comfort

My strength and my shield

Sorrow and sadness

He knows how I feel

Knowing my struggles

He went through it all

So I turn to Jesus

Who's been there before

Because He knows how I feel even though I don't. Because He's been there before. So I guess let me just turn to Him and rest in His peace. I know I don't know much about tomorrow or what will happen days, weeks, months or even years down this road. But I should just trust the author of my life, that I am never alone for each step that I take and even if I fall, He will pick me up, raise me up on eagle's wings and emerge stronger and better than before. It's time for me to run towards Him, and never away. =)

Today is the day

I'm casting my cares aside

I'm leaving my past behind

I'm setting my heart and mind on You

Jesus

I'm reaching my hand to Yours

Believing there's so much more

Knowing that all You have in store for me is good

Is good

Today is the day You have made

I will rejoice and be glad in it

Today is the day You have made

I will rejoice and be glad in it

And I won't worry about tomorrow

I'm trusting in what You say

Today is the day

I'm putting my fears aside

I'm leaving my doubts behind

I'm giving my hopes and dreams to You

Jesus

I'm reaching my hands to Yours

Believing there's so much more

Knowing that all You have in store for me is good

Is good

Today is the day You have made

I will rejoice and be glad in it

Today is the day You have made

I will rejoice and be glad in it

And I won't worry about tomorrow

I'm trusting in what You say

Today is the day

And I will stand upon Your truth

And all my days I live for You

Today is the day You have made

I will rejoice and be glad in it

Today is the day You have made

I will rejoice and be glad in it

And I won't worry about tomorrow

I'm giving You my fears and sorrows

Where You lead me I will follow

I'm trusting in what You say

Today is the day

Fairest Lord Jesus/My Only Crown

Fairest Lord Jesus

Ruler of all nature

Oh, Thou of God and man the Son

Thee will I cherish

Thee will I honor

Thou my soul's glory, joy and crown

Fair are the meadows

Fairer still the woodlands,

Robed in blooming garb of spring

Jesus you're fairer

Jesus you're purer,

Who makes the woeful heart to sing

My only crown is knowing You

And to be found in You my only glory

And on that day, I will bow down

And bring to You my only crown

Thee will I cherish

Thee will I honor

Thou my soul's glory, joy and crown

The Love of God

Emmanuel

You're with me surely closer than I can say

I know Thee well

I'm hidden shadowed under Your wings always

And oh, where else can I turn but to the Love of God

In brokenness

I know You hold me safe in redemption's arms

And I confess

You alone restore me, leading me to Your heart

Because when all else fails, all we need to do is to turn to Him. And no matter how painful the journey will be, how arduous the journey may be, He is there to give us the strength we need to pull through each day and ultimately, emerge victorious and triumphant in Him. Because God has His plans for us, but they will only be executed in His own way and at His own special time. Since we are not in control, as we wait, let's take heart and dwell in His awesome love, and pull through each day with Him holding our hands. He will never let go of our hands, never. So let's not let go of His =)