Son of God

Hold my hand and walk with me
You're the Light that makes me see
On this path my soul You lead
O my Shepherd walk with me

I need You more then breath
You're my hope in You I live
Angels worship at Your throne
Power and Glory to You alone

My Saviour
Glorious one
My Redeemer
Living in my heart
Now and forever
Your Kingdom come
Jesus Son of God
Jesus Son of God

I need You more then breath

You're my hope in You I live

Angels worship at Your throne

Power and Glory to You alone

My Saviour

Glorious one

My Redeemer

Living in my heart

Now and forever

Your Kingdom come

Jesus Son of God

Jesus Son of God

Jesus,O Jesus
Holy is The Lamb of God
Jesus,O Jesus
Worthy is The Lamb of God

My Saviour
Glorious one
My Redeemer
Living in my heart
Now and forever
Your Kingdom come
Jesus Son of God
Jesus Son of God

I love this song so so much... So so nice!!

It had been a long time since I last stepped into Nativity Church. Yesterday, Paul asked me to go to Nativity to listen to the combined choir practice for Christmas. Wow... They were amazing. Just amazing... They sang Exultate Deus, O Holy Night, I Wander as I Wander (By John Rutter) and Angel's Carol (By John Rutter). VJ Choir sang Exultate Deus for the Choir Olympics last year and after listening to Nativity choir last night, I was so shocked and yet amazed by their standard. They sounded quite like the recording done by VJ choir. Considering that they practice only once every week for that song and the choir comprised of people from different age groups (both young and old), making it difficult for them to come together and meet, they actually sounded quite good! Even though there were only 4 basses and 10 over sopranos, the basses can still be heard very clearly! Wow... I miss singing with them. In fact, I miss singing in a choir... Sigh... I remembered I joined the Nativity Choir for the past two years, singing for Monty Thursday (Holy Thursday), Good Friday and Easter Vigil. The experience is definitely wonderful! Anyway, I am very happy to be able to listen to them sing again because it has been more than a year since I last saw the aunties and uncles.

I feel quite happy today. Being able to go out with my family and cousins... haha... Funny bunch of people. Today's service was rather enriching too! It's about the Manila Miracle Revival and we get to listen to some of the gospelighters' testimony on the event. The miracles are really so great! So wonderful! And I am constantly reminded that with faith, anything is possible and that is the one message that I really need at this point of time... haha... Family and friends. They are just so important in our life! But whatever it is, life is brief and we will enter a better and wonderful place in future when we return to God! Woohoo! Praise God for all that he has done for us!

Finally, the A level Examinations are over... The gruelling 3 weeks which we all have to go through has finally come to an end. I know I should be happy and all but I just feel weird... lost... confused... By quite a number of things.

In less than 2 weeks time, I will be opening a new chapter of my life. 8 of December will be the day I give up my freedom for the nation (hahaha =x) and I guess I am feeling a little scared. I really don't know how life will be like in there (obviously)... sigh...

It has been more than a month since I felt depressed... Through this period of time, I've learnt to really ignore my troubles and worries in preparation of my examinations. I guess the exams serve as a "distraction" for me to run away from my feelings. So many things happened through this period of time. I have drawn myself closer to the 7 wanderers. During the examination period, we went to Orchard to relax and shop around even though we still have 3 papers left. After our last second paper, we went to watch Harry Potter together even though we still have 1 paper left. I really feel so happy together with my bunch of friends and I really thank them for making my life in Meridian so colourful. While we were out, I just feel weird at first... I was reminded of many many things... Things which I am thankful and grateful for because it made me very happy... And yet, I feel sad... Sad that things may not be the same again... Things change so quickly through this period of time. I'm trying to move on... just move on...

Sometimes I really wonder... When one says, "We must keep in contact k?" or "We will definitely be friends forever!" To what extent will one truly go out and fulfill this statement. I had a friend once during lower secondary. A close senior and friend. He would always ask me to keep in contact with him. But after he went to JC, we just did not keep in touch with each other. And there you go, one close friend lost... Now, I am trying to treasure the friends I have now and hopefully, as we move on in life, our friendship will never fall...

Footprints in the Sand

One night a man had a dream. He dreamt he was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonged to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that if happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it. "LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all teh way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied, "My precious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

This story is so inspiring. Indeed, the LORD is always by our side when we most needed HIM. Whenever I feel down and sad and I start to pray, I know that HE is comforting me and trying to make me feel better. And I really feel better in the end. God really helped me get through the most troubled times in my life and I am so thankful for that. Praise God! Today, I feel better after what happened during the past 3 weeks. God answered my prayer and I am so grateful for that! Never doubt HIM. HE IS THE TRUE AND LIVING GOD! Hallelujah! Praise God!

John 14:6

Jesus said,"I am the way, the truth and the life. No one
comes to the Father except through me.

Woohoo!! The A levels is coming!!! 3 more days... I don't even know if I am prepared. I feel prepared for Chemistry (Abit lar...), I feel ok for maths... As for Biology, I just pray hard that I can answer whatever questions that they throw to me because I have not been practicing TYS for Biology but keep on doing TYS for Chem and Maths... Hopefully, I will be ready by then.

Hmmm... While all my friends are studying so hard at home, I can still find time to slack!! I am so crazy!!! Not as if I am a smart ass or what... but I have not motivation to study... SO SO BAD!!! SCREAM!!!! On Thursday, I went to Pasir Ris Park with my family and my cousins and I went cycling. 5 days to A levels and I still can go cycling... haha... I am just so crazy... Anyway, I guess I need that break because I have been at home for the past few days mugging my butt out for the A levels. Ahhhh... How I hope it won't be a re run of my O levels...

Thursday was a very fun day for me I guess. The cycling session with my cousins was great! It had been a while since I last cycled (In september actually... haha) and as usual, many memories flow pass my mind (I am so sentimental... gosh!). We drove past Costa Sands Resort and I remembered by carolling session there when I was in Secondary 1. We combined with Pei Cai choir and sang right in front of the swimming pool. I can still picture myself wearing that purply pink hawaiian shirt and black pants and singing the Christmas carol. Then, it rained suddenly (I don't think its because of our singing...) so we had to move in doors. We just sang and sang and sang. Even if there was no one listening to us, we just keep on singing. haha... It was rather fun! So relaxed and enjoyable! Hmmm... I guess I was a happy little kid then. No troubles, no worries... Just enjoy enjoy enjoy. But, hey, as we grow up, we have more responsibilities and I guess being busy with so many things is inevitable. Anyway, we celebrated Mrs Lee's birthday then... Haha... Although Mrs Lee can be very nasty, I know she is still a nice lady inside (somewhere...). Thinking back on the way she act and speak, I can't help but laugh at her. She got so many funny actions. Even when she scolds, its also funny. But her character a bit bad lar... So we I shan't say much...

Then, as I cycled through Pasir Ris Park, I remembered how my family used to camp there, by the sea. My cousins and I will sit around and talk through the night. The adults will talk among themselves. Hmmmz... It was just so fun.

Aiya... For now, I guess I will just have to live through the next 3 weeks before I can start enjoying all I want... Time passes very quickly indeed... It will end soon... soon...

Praise God!

Great... Another day has past and its one more day closer to the A levels (Which also means that it is one day closer to the end of A levels!). All I want is my two weeks of relaxation before I enter the army. Sigh... so fast...

Anyway, I have been thinking about my past lately. Today, as I was playing One Single Light on my keyboard, I was thinking about Montfort Chorale (Montfort Music Society then...) and how time haS past so quickly. Yesterday, I read through posts which I had written in the past and they were about how I would miss my friends and how I would miss my school. Now, two years have already past and my friends in Montfort Chorale has already left Montfort for a year and another batch of juniors have graduated this year. So fast... So so fast...

Thank God for allowing us to keep in touch always. Even though most of us have already entered different schools, we still kept in touch here and there and we also had MCA meetings at my house every saturday (not many turn up lar... but still a gathering...). Praise God! May our friendship grow stronger each year and may we never fall! MCA forever! haha...

I guess I had really went through alot since my secondary school days. During my lower sec days, I had a very fierce and bit*hy form teacher and I survived those two years of "misery". Actually, it was rather fun as my lower sec class was somewhat united and we know how to handle situations. Hiakzz! Then, during my upper sec days, I had many wonderful teachers whom I truly respect. I found a very close and fun group of friends and we named ourselves the planets and Holland V Montfort. haha... It was really very very funny those days. My Chemistry Communication Challenge which I will definitely not forget as we Chem Crusaders had really learnt a lot of things from it and we also learnt to be independent as Mrs Quek was on MC for a long period of time and we had to do most of the things ourselves during the finals. At least, we got into the finals and we are already very happy about it! Of course, not forgetting my choir days in Montfort. Having to change a conductor almost every year was something very very unpleasant. I have described the "history" of my days in choir before under the post on happy fish i think... haha... I will not forget my wonderful 3M1E and my wonderful wonderful choir committee and choir members... Yea... All these things have really created a huge impact on me. And these memories will stay by me forever.

Life in a Junior College is so brief and short. During the first three months of last year, I was praying like crazy that I could enter Meridian. Now, I have officially graduated from Meridian. Through these two years, I have learnt a lot of things not just in terms of studies. I've learnt to conquer my fears, treasure things which I really don't wish to lose and also, work towards my goal. I've achieved many many things in JC too. I had the experience of staging 3 concerts and had sang in a combined choir before. I even experienced how it feels like to get a Gold for SYF! haha... The choir really worked very hard for SYF. We went through a lot with Mr Kwei and Mr Yong and I guess, we have earned and learnt many many things out of it. Although we were aiming for Gold with Honors, a Gold is still good enough since we are the only choir which is not under the Choral Excellence Programme. Yea! All these things, I truly miss.

Looking back at my past, I really can't help but feel that I am really very very lucky. Really lucky to have people who care, to be exposed to so many things. Thank God for allowing all these things to come into my life! As for now, I shall post some random photos again, photos which really make me think about what I have now and what I had in the past... I will definitely treasure my friends now because I really don't want to regret if anything is to happen in future. (*Touch wood*). Anyway, here are the photos in both my JC and secondary school days... enjoy...

Friends

3 Musketeers and 1 Extra! (2005)

The 3 Musketeers and 1 Extra! notice that our position is the direct opposite from the picture above... haha

Jason, me and Choon

Mr Chua and my clique in class... haha

A trip to Sentosa after prelims!

The planets without Melvin and Ching Si... (During La Risonanza I)

The planets/Holland V

The Chem Crusaders with Mrs Quek and Mrs Tan-Sin

MJChoir Days

MJChoir!

MJChoir Basses 2005

Year 2 Choir members

La Risonanza II

Not forgeting my beloved Montfort Choir peeps!

Montfort Chorale 2002 (After Founder's Day)

Montfort Chorale 2003 (Before SYF 2003)

Montfort Chorale 2004 (During Montpressivo I)

The beloved committee of 2003

We just rock! (Taken last year)

Studying all day seems to make me feel so crazy. I was singing facts to myself as I was studying... Really, one of these days, I will definitely move to the wonderful village/chalet located near my house. I will just post some family photos online for the fun of it... Anyway, no one realised that I have reopened my blog, so who cares... right? haha... Here are some of the people whom I love and treasure...

Family

Wow... I feel so much better today! After attending service today, I feel so light. As if my troubles and worries are lifted away. Praise God! My questions are answered through today's service. I feel as if God is telling me what to do and how to overcome my problems and it really feels good!

It has been a long time since I had such a good laugh. Today, my cousins and I were trying to take photos of ourselves by ourselves. smackin! haha... I shall post photos online after I learn how to do it. I remembered the last time since I had such a good laugh was when choon came to my house and we were typing this long funny message on the Montfort Chorale MSN groups. Sigh... Time really passes so quickly. It feels as if I have just entered Meridian yesterday. Although the time spent in Meridian is a short 1 +++ years, I guess it is a rather fruitful one. Sigh... My A levels are coming. Hopefully, I will be prepared by then... sianess...






Our first attempt to take a picture of the five of us by ourselves...















Our second attempt...















Our third attempt...













Finally... one successful attempt...









My cousins and I were like one bunch of crazy people sitting by the bench trying to take pictures of ourselve... I was laughing my head off man! haha... Anyway, it was really fun and I truly enjoyed myself. Not just that night but the whole day. Thank you Lord!

Sigh... The A levels are coming. I am feeling so stressed and depressed. So many things are bothering me now. I really don't know what to do but to turn to God. I will always feel so comforted after talking to God but things will always be ruined after some time when my stupid brain starts to lose faith and think about those pessimistic things. Sometimes I really feel like I am going to go mad soon. I am really trying my best to hold on and persevere towards the end. I am really trying my best to be strong in my Faith. Why must the evil devil ruin this for me? I feel so weak, so vulnerable.

This past two weeks have not been a very good one for me. I guess I am just being affected by so many things now. I want to do well for my A levels. I don't want to repeat the same mistakes I've made during my O levels. And yet, it seems that history is repeating itself again. Sigh... I really feel so numb, so tired! How I wish this chapter of my life will end soon. Sigh...

Trust in God and in Him you will find great riches. Faith, I tell you, can move mountains.

How I wish I will not be affected so easily... How I wish time will pass by quickly... How I wish I can be strong, stronger than before...

Whatever it is, PRAISE GOD! for being my guide, for being by my side whenever I am feeling sad, down and depressed, for calming me down whenever I feel agitated, for guiding me through each day!

Wow... 2 weeks since school started. Everything is happening so quickly. Got into a new class. Had great teachers! Received my enlistment notice... 2 chapters for each subject covered in just 2 weeks. Its so fast. I am getting tired more and more easily. Lost my stamina and all. Help me!

Anyway, MJC choir will be having a concert! woohoo! SYF is confirmed. Year 1s are enthusiastic. 8 male Year 1s. Haiz... am really really very tired. Lost. Montfort Chorale improved quite alot. whatever... this entry has no direction... going to do homework liaoz... haizz