I wonder... hmmmz...
These few days, I have been thinking back about the past, the times I had in my secondary school lifel. I guess those memories will never fade away as I move on in life. Today is the day when my choir committee received sad news 2 years back. I guess it was very sad and emotional to learn that Mr Yong is leaving us then. sigh... Whatever it is, it is now part of the past and there is nothing we can do about it.
I had my choir meeting in school today. It was definitely fun... Had never laughed so much for the past months. Anyway, I have motivated myself to start doing my holiday assignment because I want to enjoy my Christmas... Haha... So yea, it's gonna be fun tomorrow. MJ choir will be having our "choral clinic" (a cover-up name) and it will definitely be fun. I hope... hmmmmzz....
Monday, November 29, 2004
Sunday, November 28, 2004
Just another day
Heyz heyz!
Wow... I've been extremely lazy for the past few days. Eat, sleep, read, watch TV. My holiday assignments are still nicely placed in my file, waiting for me to touch them and finish them. Sigh... I am just so lazy to start doing my homework.
Have been re-reading Harry Potter lately. It is just so exciting even though I have read it before.
Happy Fish (Kuai Le Yu).
For those who watch Xi Ling Men 2 (that 7pm show on Channel 8), you might understand what I am referring to. Hmmmmz... I find the situation the Montfort Chorale is facing, similar to Kuai Le Yu (The restaurant which sells the very famous fish and chips in the show).
Before da ma died, the restaurant is still prospering, doing quite well in fact. This is so similar to my batch of seniors whom I truly respect. Although we were only a 20 strong choir when i was in sec 1, the choir was actually doing very well. At that time, Mrs Paula Lee(The most feared conductress) was the choir mistress and my seniors knows how to handle her screamings and sarcasm quite well. So our relationship with our conductress then, was good too! We also had bonding sessions everytime after choir practice and we really had a choir room which we can truly own it. I guess, a good relationship between conductor and choir and a choir with its members bonded together like a family is important helping a choir to do well in whatever they want to do. And that's why, i guess at that time, we were doing quite well. I was one out of the 4 miserable new sec 1 members then.
When I was in Sec 2, my seniors left. Those sec 3s who were in choir quit because they did not like Mrs Lee. So, its left with the four sec 2 members and big bunch of sec 1 members who were conscripted into choir. This phase is similar to that when Jiaxi (That b***** daughter of da ma) took over the restaurant for the first time after Da Ma's death. The choir was extremely disorientated. We can't harmonise properly and we ended up singing songs with one part. Our first SYF took place that year and we achieved a COP. It was so expected. Most of the people (maybe everyone) dislike Mrs Lee because she is always screaming and never admits that she is wrong. But i guess she is a nice lady outside choir time. Knowing that the sec 1 members did not like choir very much, attendance was bad. I shan't elaborate... it was a total disaster.
Near the end of 2001, my sec 2 year, Mr Yong entered the choir. With him taking over the choir, we see light and a bright future a head. This third phase is similar to that when Yaxi and Meili (daughter-in-laws of the Luo family) helped out and take charge in the restaurant. The choir learnt new stuff and started from scratch. I was extremely happy and was always looking forward to choir practices. It's like the only thing that can make me feel happy even though i am suffering from a bad day. I totally enjoyed myself through choir practice and Mr Yong became not just our conductor, but also, our friend. He was very friendly, kind and is always smiling. He hardly scolds us (Okay... maybe once because we made him extremely angry. But that's not the point). Also, he has many plans for the choir and I can see his passion to teach us. The relationship between choir and conductor was there... a good friendship. At that time, the committee had tried their best to create a bond between each choir member. We would always have a sing along session in the bus as we were on our way home. Everyone would just sing along and harmonise together on the bus. The teachers were happy. The members were happy. The committee were happy. And indeed, we did show improvements in our standard. However, at the end of that year, Mr Ng came in and took over.
This marks the fourth phase... Jiaxi with support from Gao Zhi An (That disgusting psycho who goes around abusing women) took over the restaurant again. I am not saying that Mr Ng is not good in anyway. No! Mr Ng is indeed a man with knowlege and he knows what he is doing and all. But when he took over, I guess the choir did not accept him fully... and until now... the present... the choir seems to be in a pathetic state... What was once a 40 strong choir has been reduced to a 20 ++ strong choir (Supposedly to be 35, however, some souls choose to absent themselves for God knows what reasons). They are now strugglins with the Set piece and at the rate that they are going... I don't know. Sigh...
This leaves me to a sad conclusion that... If an organisation is not united, if they are not willing to accept changes and hope for the better... then, don't expect any good outcome at the end of it. Anyway, I guess I am thinking alot. But, such things just dawn on me when i am just staring blankly into space. Time flies. Things change. We can't live in a world of yesterday to expect great things in future. Sigh... Although i love and enjoyed myself in Meridian, I still wish I could go back to the past, where all my happy memories resides...
Wow... I've been extremely lazy for the past few days. Eat, sleep, read, watch TV. My holiday assignments are still nicely placed in my file, waiting for me to touch them and finish them. Sigh... I am just so lazy to start doing my homework.
Have been re-reading Harry Potter lately. It is just so exciting even though I have read it before.
Happy Fish (Kuai Le Yu).
For those who watch Xi Ling Men 2 (that 7pm show on Channel 8), you might understand what I am referring to. Hmmmmz... I find the situation the Montfort Chorale is facing, similar to Kuai Le Yu (The restaurant which sells the very famous fish and chips in the show).
Before da ma died, the restaurant is still prospering, doing quite well in fact. This is so similar to my batch of seniors whom I truly respect. Although we were only a 20 strong choir when i was in sec 1, the choir was actually doing very well. At that time, Mrs Paula Lee(The most feared conductress) was the choir mistress and my seniors knows how to handle her screamings and sarcasm quite well. So our relationship with our conductress then, was good too! We also had bonding sessions everytime after choir practice and we really had a choir room which we can truly own it. I guess, a good relationship between conductor and choir and a choir with its members bonded together like a family is important helping a choir to do well in whatever they want to do. And that's why, i guess at that time, we were doing quite well. I was one out of the 4 miserable new sec 1 members then.
When I was in Sec 2, my seniors left. Those sec 3s who were in choir quit because they did not like Mrs Lee. So, its left with the four sec 2 members and big bunch of sec 1 members who were conscripted into choir. This phase is similar to that when Jiaxi (That b***** daughter of da ma) took over the restaurant for the first time after Da Ma's death. The choir was extremely disorientated. We can't harmonise properly and we ended up singing songs with one part. Our first SYF took place that year and we achieved a COP. It was so expected. Most of the people (maybe everyone) dislike Mrs Lee because she is always screaming and never admits that she is wrong. But i guess she is a nice lady outside choir time. Knowing that the sec 1 members did not like choir very much, attendance was bad. I shan't elaborate... it was a total disaster.
Near the end of 2001, my sec 2 year, Mr Yong entered the choir. With him taking over the choir, we see light and a bright future a head. This third phase is similar to that when Yaxi and Meili (daughter-in-laws of the Luo family) helped out and take charge in the restaurant. The choir learnt new stuff and started from scratch. I was extremely happy and was always looking forward to choir practices. It's like the only thing that can make me feel happy even though i am suffering from a bad day. I totally enjoyed myself through choir practice and Mr Yong became not just our conductor, but also, our friend. He was very friendly, kind and is always smiling. He hardly scolds us (Okay... maybe once because we made him extremely angry. But that's not the point). Also, he has many plans for the choir and I can see his passion to teach us. The relationship between choir and conductor was there... a good friendship. At that time, the committee had tried their best to create a bond between each choir member. We would always have a sing along session in the bus as we were on our way home. Everyone would just sing along and harmonise together on the bus. The teachers were happy. The members were happy. The committee were happy. And indeed, we did show improvements in our standard. However, at the end of that year, Mr Ng came in and took over.
This marks the fourth phase... Jiaxi with support from Gao Zhi An (That disgusting psycho who goes around abusing women) took over the restaurant again. I am not saying that Mr Ng is not good in anyway. No! Mr Ng is indeed a man with knowlege and he knows what he is doing and all. But when he took over, I guess the choir did not accept him fully... and until now... the present... the choir seems to be in a pathetic state... What was once a 40 strong choir has been reduced to a 20 ++ strong choir (Supposedly to be 35, however, some souls choose to absent themselves for God knows what reasons). They are now strugglins with the Set piece and at the rate that they are going... I don't know. Sigh...
This leaves me to a sad conclusion that... If an organisation is not united, if they are not willing to accept changes and hope for the better... then, don't expect any good outcome at the end of it. Anyway, I guess I am thinking alot. But, such things just dawn on me when i am just staring blankly into space. Time flies. Things change. We can't live in a world of yesterday to expect great things in future. Sigh... Although i love and enjoyed myself in Meridian, I still wish I could go back to the past, where all my happy memories resides...
Friday, November 19, 2004
Tiring Day
Hello people!
Wow, at last, lessons for the second semester had ended! Phewy! Today's chemistry was quite enriching but the lecturer drag on for like another 40 minutes, so its like total suffering. But its no doubt helpful for the test next year.
Went to Montfort this morning. Their attendance is totally pathetic because only 17 out of 35 members came for practice. I wonder how they are going to get at least a bronze for SYF if their attitude continues to be the "YAY! COP FOR NEXT YEAR!" or "AIYA CONFIRM COP ONE LAR!". How irritating. I wish I could just stand in front of them to scold them. hmmmz... At least the sec 3s are not a let down in terms of attitude. But the lower sec should be given a wake up call! They don't even know what SYF means to the school, teachers, seniors and most of all, to them. They should at least do themselves proud by achieving something from their CCA on not just while their time away and achieve nothing. I believe a CCA is not just a compulsory activity that you must take part in, but it is a chance to let you explore your talents and learn something out of it. SYF... I always hoped that the Montfort Chorale could get at least a bronze last year. I know we are capable of doing it. But things don't always happen the way you want it to happen. At least I have taken that in my stride and I am trying my best to go back for their practices to help them achieve something next year. Sign... I guess its another COP year if they continue with this attitude.
Sunset.
I love that song. Its beautiful. The lyrics are rather relaxing and the JC version is quite easy to sing. Mr Kwei has told us how to attack the piece and how to sing out the essence of the song. Although the secondary school version is similar to that of the JC version, I guess Montfort will have a hard time conquering that piece because of the beats and the way they potray songs. Haha... Not that I want to say them or anything, but shouting songs suits them the best. They seem to be unable to do slow, relaxing songs. But if there's a will, there's a way. I will make sure they can get it right. Since its the holidays, I will have time to go back for their practices! and of course I need to study. The warning from my lecturers are scaring me. A levels next year. Time will just pass so quickly and its gonna be tough.
Anyway, saya kita balik ruma... haha... ignore me... trying to be lame... Shall blog the next time... goodie bye
Wow, at last, lessons for the second semester had ended! Phewy! Today's chemistry was quite enriching but the lecturer drag on for like another 40 minutes, so its like total suffering. But its no doubt helpful for the test next year.
Went to Montfort this morning. Their attendance is totally pathetic because only 17 out of 35 members came for practice. I wonder how they are going to get at least a bronze for SYF if their attitude continues to be the "YAY! COP FOR NEXT YEAR!" or "AIYA CONFIRM COP ONE LAR!". How irritating. I wish I could just stand in front of them to scold them. hmmmz... At least the sec 3s are not a let down in terms of attitude. But the lower sec should be given a wake up call! They don't even know what SYF means to the school, teachers, seniors and most of all, to them. They should at least do themselves proud by achieving something from their CCA on not just while their time away and achieve nothing. I believe a CCA is not just a compulsory activity that you must take part in, but it is a chance to let you explore your talents and learn something out of it. SYF... I always hoped that the Montfort Chorale could get at least a bronze last year. I know we are capable of doing it. But things don't always happen the way you want it to happen. At least I have taken that in my stride and I am trying my best to go back for their practices to help them achieve something next year. Sign... I guess its another COP year if they continue with this attitude.
Sunset.
I love that song. Its beautiful. The lyrics are rather relaxing and the JC version is quite easy to sing. Mr Kwei has told us how to attack the piece and how to sing out the essence of the song. Although the secondary school version is similar to that of the JC version, I guess Montfort will have a hard time conquering that piece because of the beats and the way they potray songs. Haha... Not that I want to say them or anything, but shouting songs suits them the best. They seem to be unable to do slow, relaxing songs. But if there's a will, there's a way. I will make sure they can get it right. Since its the holidays, I will have time to go back for their practices! and of course I need to study. The warning from my lecturers are scaring me. A levels next year. Time will just pass so quickly and its gonna be tough.
Anyway, saya kita balik ruma... haha... ignore me... trying to be lame... Shall blog the next time... goodie bye
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
Another day...
Alright... another day of school. How tiring and energy consuming. The biology department rocks!! haha... Our lecturers always let us off so early and they are always there for us when we needed them. Yea!! Just hope that this week will end soon because I am beginning to get sick of having double lecture periods everyday. It can kill both the mind and the soul alright.
Went to Compass Point to get Jing Yi's birthday present. Wow, I bought him a pair of slippers from OP which costs 23 bucks... hmmmz... Its nice! I like it very much... but Mum might nag larz... haha... Its ok... Preparing to make Christmas presents this year. Another hand made thing which is cheap and i guess meaningful? haha... I make them with love, patience and yada yada yada... what crap... But its gonna be nice... I hope...
Life is full of ups and downs. A bad childhood can cause a great impact in how you are gonna lead your life in future. A nasty situation can cause a great impact in you and might result in making your life miserable as days past. I wonder, how can a problem like this be solved? Seeing a psychiatrist? Taking medicine? Facing these fears alone? I don't know... Sometimes, things might get so out of hand that you might get hurt both physically and mentally. I, for that matter, will break down totally and go mad if I don't seek help. God has spoken to me. I know what to do. But, its difficult with a mind that is very unexpected. One moment you may be alright, but the next moment, you may just feel down, moody etc. I know what I want to do in future. I guess I am living in fear each day but it's no point. I am the cause of such misery and I should put an end to it. But how am I going to do it if I don't have a strong mind? God is the answer to this question.
Haha... anyway, got our SYF set piece. It is great! Hope Montfort can do it well... Alright, shall end hear... mother nagging...
Went to Compass Point to get Jing Yi's birthday present. Wow, I bought him a pair of slippers from OP which costs 23 bucks... hmmmz... Its nice! I like it very much... but Mum might nag larz... haha... Its ok... Preparing to make Christmas presents this year. Another hand made thing which is cheap and i guess meaningful? haha... I make them with love, patience and yada yada yada... what crap... But its gonna be nice... I hope...
Life is full of ups and downs. A bad childhood can cause a great impact in how you are gonna lead your life in future. A nasty situation can cause a great impact in you and might result in making your life miserable as days past. I wonder, how can a problem like this be solved? Seeing a psychiatrist? Taking medicine? Facing these fears alone? I don't know... Sometimes, things might get so out of hand that you might get hurt both physically and mentally. I, for that matter, will break down totally and go mad if I don't seek help. God has spoken to me. I know what to do. But, its difficult with a mind that is very unexpected. One moment you may be alright, but the next moment, you may just feel down, moody etc. I know what I want to do in future. I guess I am living in fear each day but it's no point. I am the cause of such misery and I should put an end to it. But how am I going to do it if I don't have a strong mind? God is the answer to this question.
Haha... anyway, got our SYF set piece. It is great! Hope Montfort can do it well... Alright, shall end hear... mother nagging...
Sunday, November 07, 2004
Blog awoken from deep sleep... hahazz
Hello! hello hello hello (slowly echoing away)
Haha... i know it has been a loooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnngggggggggg time since i blogged so here i am, blogging a new entry. Wonders if anyone will ever bother visiting my blog again but here it goes.
Time has passed so quickly. Through this 9 months of my life ever since I left my blog, many things had happened to me - good, bad, whatever.
I entered into a whole new world after being extinct from the education system for 3 months. Being able to experience the life of a Junior College student is incredible. Life has took a drastic change for me. I began to think about things from a different perspective and i began to learn new stuff from my choir. The lecture tutorial system was quite difficult to adapt at first, but it takes time for me to get used to this new system and learn what I want to learn.
JC education is definitely a great big step away from what we learn in secondary school. I am taking Biology, Chemistry and Maths C as my subject here in MJC. Biology used to be: respiration involves mitochondria which produces ATP as a source of energy. Now... Biology is: Respiration involves 3 processes, glycolysis, kreb's cycle and oxidative phosphorylation coupled with the electron transport chain. Chemistry used to be: a covalent bond is formed when 2 or more atoms of non-metallic elements share their electrons to form a stable octet configuration. Now chemsitry is: a covalent bond is the strong electrostatic forces of attraction between the shared electron pair and the postively charged nuclei of each constituent atom. Fun yet challenging. Being able to score a CCD for my promotional exams really makes me feel happy. But there is more to come.
Through this year, I had the chance to perform in concerts which I do not get to do so in the past. First it was La Risonanza, MJC choir own solo concert at VCH. It was successful but due to a small mistake, my choral conductor was mad in the end. Secondly, Montpressivo, Montfort Chorale's first solo concert at CHIJMES hall. It was also successful and I was their guest conductor. I am so proud of them, being through all the hard times and practices and being able to produce such results on their concert day. Mr Yong came too! but he came secretly because he did not want the choir to crowd around him (as usual) and make Mr Ng feel embarass. Now, I am promoted to the bass SL for MJ choir. I feel quite awkward at first, but nevertheless, we shall see the outcome...
Haha... i know it has been a loooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnngggggggggg time since i blogged so here i am, blogging a new entry. Wonders if anyone will ever bother visiting my blog again but here it goes.
Time has passed so quickly. Through this 9 months of my life ever since I left my blog, many things had happened to me - good, bad, whatever.
I entered into a whole new world after being extinct from the education system for 3 months. Being able to experience the life of a Junior College student is incredible. Life has took a drastic change for me. I began to think about things from a different perspective and i began to learn new stuff from my choir. The lecture tutorial system was quite difficult to adapt at first, but it takes time for me to get used to this new system and learn what I want to learn.
JC education is definitely a great big step away from what we learn in secondary school. I am taking Biology, Chemistry and Maths C as my subject here in MJC. Biology used to be: respiration involves mitochondria which produces ATP as a source of energy. Now... Biology is: Respiration involves 3 processes, glycolysis, kreb's cycle and oxidative phosphorylation coupled with the electron transport chain. Chemistry used to be: a covalent bond is formed when 2 or more atoms of non-metallic elements share their electrons to form a stable octet configuration. Now chemsitry is: a covalent bond is the strong electrostatic forces of attraction between the shared electron pair and the postively charged nuclei of each constituent atom. Fun yet challenging. Being able to score a CCD for my promotional exams really makes me feel happy. But there is more to come.
Through this year, I had the chance to perform in concerts which I do not get to do so in the past. First it was La Risonanza, MJC choir own solo concert at VCH. It was successful but due to a small mistake, my choral conductor was mad in the end. Secondly, Montpressivo, Montfort Chorale's first solo concert at CHIJMES hall. It was also successful and I was their guest conductor. I am so proud of them, being through all the hard times and practices and being able to produce such results on their concert day. Mr Yong came too! but he came secretly because he did not want the choir to crowd around him (as usual) and make Mr Ng feel embarass. Now, I am promoted to the bass SL for MJ choir. I feel quite awkward at first, but nevertheless, we shall see the outcome...