I love this song alot! This song is called "Butterfly" arranged and sung by a vocal a cappella group called Rajaton. But in this video, the song was sung by the Williams College Ephlats. I like the voice of the Sop solo in this video. Very nice and beautifully sung! Woots! Sweet sweet butterfly...

For the past 2 weekends, I've been trying out new recipes with my oven! I think I'm addicted to baking -_-" But it is really fun, spending time baking cakes and cookies for frens and family to eat! Its like some big charity event (so my mother said........ haha... Anyway, I tried baking pound cake and cheese cake last week. This week, i tried oreo cheesecake and chocolate chocolate chip muffins while my mum made pineapple tarts.They all came out okay. Not too bad i would say =)) Yea yea! Here are some of the photos of the things I've baked.

The muffin looks disgusting (due to my untrained hands..... =x) But its still taste alright. The light brownish colour on the top is due to the sugar I've sprinkled on the top to create a crispy top. It looks uneven because I didn't know how much would be enough... haha... I'm not very good at agarism... So yea... And Andre, it doesn't taste like peanut cake! haha...

So its almost one year since my Grandma had left us. Time has indeed passed by so quickly that it seems only weeks since it happened. Tomorrow will be some ceremony at a temple to commemorate my grandma's first death anniversary. Hopefully all will go well. Yea, although I'm a Christian, I'll still take part in the ceremony as a sign of respect for my grandmother. Its the least I can do to make up for the wrongs I've done in the past. It kinda dawn on me that this coming Chinese New Year would be so different. In the past, my family would go down to my grandmother's place for reunion dinner on new year's eve. We would just be there at Serangoon gardens, eating a sumptous dinner prepared by my grandmother. Although the whole family wasn't around, it is still great to be there because I kinda grew up there. When I was very very young, my family would go down to her place immediately and we will help with the spring cleaning (although I wasn't of much help... haha...). Then before we left, we will help place sweets and new year goodies on the large brown table beside the television. On the first day of new year, we would go back to my grandma's place in the late morning. All my aunts and uncles would be there, trying to remember whether they had given us red packets. Then they will start playing blackjack and mah jong in the afternoon while I will be in the bedroom with my other cousins, talking and stuff. That's the typical Chinese New Year for me... How will it be like for me this year? Will there even be reunion dinner with my father's side? Where will we be going on the first day of chinese new year?

I just feel really stupid. Its only when something is gone forever, that I start missing it so much. I so want to go back to my grandmother's place again. But I heard that my uncles would be selling away her place. Everything is just so different. Lately, I've been thinking about my grandmother quite alot and I don't know why... haha... Oh well... I will just have to move on won't I? I'm just glad that I am blessed with good memories which I can keep. But can I go back and relive these memories again?

What have I cooked so far? Last Saturday, I made Macaroni and cheese at home!! It's nice but then, after some time, it can be quite tiresome because its so cheesy... But I like it... Then again... Self praise is no praise. So I'll have to let my guinea pig volunteers do the testing when I see them. Here are the pics of my mac and cheese!!

I'm baking cookies now!! Not my normal chocolate chip cookies though. I'm trying something new, called the peanut butter duo chocolate chip cookie. The chocolate chips are actually milk chocolate and white chocolate striped chips (I didn't realise that until when I opened the packet...). The turn out is not bad. I've tried one or two, needs more sugar. Therefore, I'm going to bake more tomorrow!!! Anyway, here are the pics of my wonderful cookies... hehe...

I long to go back to school. I miss school. Meridian, Montfort, I miss them all.
I miss having to sit in lecture theatres with my friends, listening to lectures and trying to understand what the lecturers are saying.
I miss tutorials, where 7 of us will sit together and listen to our tutors teach.
I miss having to do homework.
I miss having to study for tests and exams.
I miss singing in both Meridian and Montfort Choir.
I miss performing in front of an audience in a choir.
I miss the times where we had to prepare for SYF.
I miss the times we had to prepare for concerts and performances.
I miss the times where I did crazy things with my frens after choir practices in Sec sch.
I miss my freedom to do what I want.

I hate this fear that is lingering within me.
I hate this feeling of nothingness within me.

I'm thankful for having people who loves me, friends, family
I'm thankful to be blessed with so many wonderful things in my life

I want my life back.

I must be patient but 11 months seems too long...

Father, give me the strength to carry on! Bless my frens, my family and I... Bless us all... Amen.

Struggling Christians who are in doubt and despair often ask in desperation:
- where is God in this situation?
- where is the reality of Christ?
- where is the wisdom that I lack?
- where is the strength that I need?
- where is the answer that I seek?

The real answer may seem shockingly simple and untrue: it’s all within you. Once you are connected to God’s unbounding resources, all good things are within your reach.

From www.lighthouse.org.sg

You've heard of the Power Rangers... You've heard of the Gransazers... Now... I'm proud to present to you....

The Seafood Pontoon Pongcrupchang Rangers!

Aren't they cute?!! From left to right, we have Bobby ao ao (as in ow ow), sandren techno, sandren copa, true sandren aude, sandren xia mi. There's Lance Corporal Paranoia too! But he is the photographer for this pic... So yea... Anyway, why are they named as the SPPR? Because the name sounds cute and catchy.... I've actually planned to type out their biodata with their individual photos here, but I need time to think man... muahahahaha....

Went blading with dre and syahmi today. To sum it all in one sentence, I suck at blading... woohoo! I need to practice more man... If not... ... ... you know? you know...

Alright, I shall carry on watching my lovely samsoon (KOREAN DRAMA!!!). Although I've watched it before on Channel U, somehow, I feel like watching it again... wahahahaha...

"Shut up Lance Corporal Paranoia!"

At last I get to access blogger and sign in to MSN. Phewy... Sigh... As usual, I don't feel like going back to work tomorrow. The feeling of not wanting to go back to work is irritating the hell out of me now... Sigh...

Just came back from my cousin's house. I stayed over at their place yesterday and boy were we crazy or what. We slept at 2+ am yesterday night because we were playing board games. At first we were playing this game called "Game of the Year" which (till now) we don't understand how the game works. We took turns to read the instructions for the game and gave up in the end because there was a much more fun game called "Mad Magazine". My cousin had been describing the game to us so excitedly a few years back and finally we get to play it together! woohoo!! Its definitely a very very crazy game. We laughed so hard and made so much noise that we woke our aunt... -.- Yea yea! definitely had a lot of fun with them around!

I met andre yesterday afternoon too! He was teaching me how to roller blade. I managed to roll all over the place and still remain intact (with no arms detached or any thing like that) thanks to andre. Its definitely very very fun to be blading all over the place!!! Oh well... Hopefully one day I can get the hang of those wheely things... hopefully... muahaha....

As for today, I've finally ran after a long break from exercising. My cousins and I went to Choa Chu Kang Stadium for a jog since they had not run for a very very long time too! Whoa... It felt great to run again. A release of negative energy! woohoo!! After that, we went to play badminton with me losing all the way... yea... I so love my family! Its always interesting to see/hear my aunts gossip with my mum, giving each other the latest updates of family business and stuff... haha... Its just so so funny! =) How thankful I am to be blessed with great friends and family!


"Let december come let december come let december come..."

Welcome to 2007! New year, new beginning, I say!

Time has past extremely quickly... Its 2007 already but I feel like its just any other ordinary day in 2006. No diff... Sigh... Oh well... Hopefully 2007 will end soon too! I want to be a civilian!!

Class gathering on 30 dec was quite okay. The number of people who turned up is more than half the class ( 16 people!). But then again, it doesn't feel class gathering-ly because everyone stayed in their own cliques as usual. The girls definitely change alot ever since they entered army. As for the guys, we just look desperate for the day to come. I'm quite sad that not everyone from my clique turned up though. Was really looking forward to see them because it has really been quite some time since we last met. But its okay. I guess there will be more chances for us to meet up in 2007!

On New year's eve, I went to catch a move with sandren. Night at the Museum is so so so funny!!! Oh my gosh! Its really a very nice show! woohoO!! We managed to see the fireworks behind the blocking trees and the tall memorial thingy. Nice fire works but the view was spoilt by the tall trees... Oh well... better than nothing.

As for today, I met up with Ting Yi and Joel. We walked around Vivocity today and we found lots of restaurants! The food there is quite expensive though. We were talking about how our taste changed as we grew up. While we were in school, fast food restaurants like Macs and KFC are like treats to us and are like places we hang out. Now that we have all graduated from JC and are doing our individual stuff, we tend to frequent expensive restaurants and stuff. Even our taste on clothes change. The way we spend money is as if money grow on trees. Wahahaha... I guess its time for us to control a little.

Hmmm... I guess I'm quite relieved that 2006 has past. Many many things happened in 2006 which has changed me emotionally and spiritually. I had to deal with a change in environment and culture after entering the army, I had to recover from my grieving of my grandmother's death, I had to deal with people who are older and of higher authority than me, I had to train myself physically to pass IPPT so that I won't have to go for recourse. Wow... Its like a roller coaster ride for me man... Somehow I feel so different (In the bad sense)... I've became more timid... Sigh... My counselling sessions definitely help but I will just have to pluck up the courage to do what I'm supposed to do because the mental block is in me and the only person who can removed that mental block is me. So I guess I'll have to work on that this year...

2006 is definitely not all bad for me... I managed to get good results for my A levels, I got into Log Branch, the place where I truly enjoyed myself in my stay in Tekong, I performed for MJChoir's concert in the alumni item, made good friends in camp, open up myself into one crazy guy with a screw loose, I passed my IPPT which means that I need not recourse, went to KOREA (SO EXCITING!!!), outings with cousins and friends, and long breaks which served as rest points for me to recover from the mental torture in camp. I've overcomed one of my mental blocks (which i still need to build on to fully recover from it), and yea, all these wonderful things that happened to me just serves as a reminder for me. That having Faith in God is really important. Throughout the year, I've been praying very hard for most of these things and God granted me with what I asked for. I'm very touched and grateful for all that I am blessed with. Faith, indeed, can move mountains!

Since this is the first day of the new year, I pray that God will bless each and every one of you out there with a wonderful new year! Put your past behind you and start anew... woohoo!!!