At the Cross

Oh Lord You've searched me

You know my way

Even when I fail You

I know You love me

Your holy presence

Surrounding me

In every season

I know You love me

I know You love me

At the cross I bow my knee

Where Your blood was shed for me

There's no greater love than this

You have overcome the grave

Your glory fills teh highest place

What can separate me now

You go before me

You shield my way

Your hand upholds me

I know You love me

You tore the veil

You made a way

When You said that it is done

And when the earth fades

Falls from my eyes

And You stand before me

I know You love me

I know You love me

Psalm 91 by Adeline Gan

I will dwell in the secret place
Of the Most High

I will stay in the shadow

Of Your wings

For Lord You are my refuge

My tower of strength

My hope is in You

Secure I stand

You will deliver me

Your truth will be my shield

Jesus You cover me

In Your love no fear prevails

No evil, no terror

No arrow, no plague

Shall ever come near me

For You are my safety,

My hiding place

Jesus I trust in You

I surrender all

Jesus

Earth cannot hold the beauty of Your splendour

Father

Heaven cannot contain Your majesty

I will trade the best of me

For all You are I'm falling into You

I surrender all

I surrender all I am

To the Saviour who surrendered all for me

Saviour

Gave up a crown of Heaven for a crown of thorns

Always

Yours is the crown of life I'm living for

Everyday I breathe You in

The sweetness of Your love is all I need

For all You are and for

All I can become

Jesus, I'm laying down my life

In times of trouble and need, we may be blinded by fear or grieve. But You lift us up!

Sometimes the things of the world may blind us and hinder us in our walk with You. But never once have You left us even though we strayed. And when we choose to return to You, You welcome us back with open arms and clothe and shower us with the best. That is how great and faithful You truly are. Because You've touched me in so many ways unseen, I choose to walk with You in this narrow path and run this race right to the very end for You. Thank You Lord!

Open my eyes

In the stars I see Your Majesty displayed

In the heavens all Your wonders are proclaimed

I see Your fame in all of the earth

And I seek to know the ways of Your heart

Through the seas and open skies I hear Your praise

As the shout of all creation lifts Your Name

I hear Your praise in all of the earth

And I seek to know the ways of Your heart

So open my eyes, oh God

Open my heart to see

All the wonders and the

Power of your name

By Your grace I'll live

By Your grace I'll see

For my life and my salvation is in You

For You take the sinner's heart and bring new life

Through the cross we are restored within Your light

I know Your love is all I need

And I seek to know the ways of Your heart

Because You restore us with double of what was before. Because all we need is to take a step of faith to move on, walk on, surrender all and let You take control. Who of us know what tomorrow holds? Only You, Lord, only You. And because of that, what is there for us to fear? We can walk through the valley of the shadow of death and not be afraid because You are with us, Your rod and staff they comfort us. You are all we need Lord. Let us put our trust and faith in You and walk on in Your love. =)

Believe

You are my light

You are my strength

You are my rock

On You i stand

I lift my voice

I raise my hands

I lift my soul

With all I am

In Christ forever I stand

I will believe

You are strong enough

In my weakness

God be lifted up

And I will sing

Lift Your praises high

Lord be magnified

You make all things new

I will believe

So hear this song

Receive our praise

You are our strength

For all our days

We lift You up

Our voices high

In every storm

Let God arise

Oh Your love

Your love will never fail

Your love it knows no end

Your love will never fail

Oh Your love

Stronger than my shame

Greater than my pain

Your love will never fail

The Answer

One hope for all our lives

Your truth remains through time

Love is the way

You gave Your life away

We now receive new life

Our eyes are opened wide

You made a way for us

When the world fails we'll be standing

On the one name that's never failing

We receive new life as we surrender

In You we know we've found the answer

In You we find our place

Your will for all our days

Never to fade

Your love will light the way

Our hearts are for Your cause

We live beyond ourselves

And let Your love be known

We live to see You

We long to know Your love

Our hearts are open

Our lives are Yours forever

Unashamed

I have not much

To offer You

Not near what You deserve

But still I come

Because Your cross

Has placed in me my worth

Oh, Christ my King

Of sympathy

Whose wounds secure my peace

Your grace extends to call me friend

Your mercy sets me free

And I know I'm weak

I know I'm unworthy

To call upon Your name

But because of grace

Because of Your mercy

I stand here unashamed

I can't explain

This kind of love

I'm humbled and amazed

That You'd come down

From heavens heights

And greet me face to face

Here I am at Your feet

In my brokenness complete

Turn to Jesus

What happened at work last Thursday pretty much caused some upheaval within me. I was pretty lost and emotional the next few days. I have no idea why. Maybe I've painted too pretty a picture of us humans only to get disappointed when I see the ugly side of humans. And maybe emotions pile up when I have to say farewell to two people within 5 days, more so about Michelle who will be away for 6 months. And through all these, I guess I was so clouded by emotions that I fail to see where Christ is in this. Instead of running towards Him to seek guidance, I chose to run away, getting myself distracted with outings after outings so that I don't have to deal with it, only to realise that at the end of the day, I'm still feeling affected by something which I can't identify.

But I guess I've come to realise, life's like that. No matter how much I want to believe the goodness in everyone, there will come a point in time where we will have to deal with difficult people, people who are difficult to love. I was thinking, my time in NS was much much worse as compared to what I am facing now. So why do I react like that? Maybe many people have been very nice to me, so much so that I forget how it feels like to be stabbed in the back like that. But ultimately, the lesson for me here is to really learn to forgive. To forgive, let go and love that person as God loves us. It is easy to say, but definitely very difficult to do. Humans are afterall humans. It is not easy for us to overlook the wrongs people did to us, especially those whom you don't have a good impression of to begin with. And I am facing that very problem. Because I've been talking so much about love, reading so much about love, singing so much about love, I thought everything will just come naturally. But I guess this is one lesson which I have to learn, that it is not as easy to love thy neighbour as thyself, not easy to forgive as we say we want to.

So how, then, can I let go? Because I so want to forgive, so want to love, but don't know how to? And I've got my answer today. And the answer is so so simple. Something which I should have done in the very first place. And that is to...

Turn to Jesus

Jesus my Saviour

My Lord and My King

Insulted, rejected

for all of our sins

Knowing pain

He went through it all

So I turn to Jesus

He's there when I fall

Lord I need You

Lord I cry out to You

My only refuge

From this world

Lord I need You

Lord I cry out to You

My only shelter,

My hope and Saviour

Jesus my comfort

My strength and my shield

Sorrow and sadness

He knows how I feel

Knowing my struggles

He went through it all

So I turn to Jesus

Who's been there before

Because He knows how I feel even though I don't. Because He's been there before. So I guess let me just turn to Him and rest in His peace. I know I don't know much about tomorrow or what will happen days, weeks, months or even years down this road. But I should just trust the author of my life, that I am never alone for each step that I take and even if I fall, He will pick me up, raise me up on eagle's wings and emerge stronger and better than before. It's time for me to run towards Him, and never away. =)

Today is the day

I'm casting my cares aside

I'm leaving my past behind

I'm setting my heart and mind on You

Jesus

I'm reaching my hand to Yours

Believing there's so much more

Knowing that all You have in store for me is good

Is good

Today is the day You have made

I will rejoice and be glad in it

Today is the day You have made

I will rejoice and be glad in it

And I won't worry about tomorrow

I'm trusting in what You say

Today is the day

I'm putting my fears aside

I'm leaving my doubts behind

I'm giving my hopes and dreams to You

Jesus

I'm reaching my hands to Yours

Believing there's so much more

Knowing that all You have in store for me is good

Is good

Today is the day You have made

I will rejoice and be glad in it

Today is the day You have made

I will rejoice and be glad in it

And I won't worry about tomorrow

I'm trusting in what You say

Today is the day

And I will stand upon Your truth

And all my days I live for You

Today is the day You have made

I will rejoice and be glad in it

Today is the day You have made

I will rejoice and be glad in it

And I won't worry about tomorrow

I'm giving You my fears and sorrows

Where You lead me I will follow

I'm trusting in what You say

Today is the day

Fairest Lord Jesus/My Only Crown

Fairest Lord Jesus

Ruler of all nature

Oh, Thou of God and man the Son

Thee will I cherish

Thee will I honor

Thou my soul's glory, joy and crown

Fair are the meadows

Fairer still the woodlands,

Robed in blooming garb of spring

Jesus you're fairer

Jesus you're purer,

Who makes the woeful heart to sing

My only crown is knowing You

And to be found in You my only glory

And on that day, I will bow down

And bring to You my only crown

Thee will I cherish

Thee will I honor

Thou my soul's glory, joy and crown

The Love of God

Emmanuel

You're with me surely closer than I can say

I know Thee well

I'm hidden shadowed under Your wings always

And oh, where else can I turn but to the Love of God

In brokenness

I know You hold me safe in redemption's arms

And I confess

You alone restore me, leading me to Your heart

Because when all else fails, all we need to do is to turn to Him. And no matter how painful the journey will be, how arduous the journey may be, He is there to give us the strength we need to pull through each day and ultimately, emerge victorious and triumphant in Him. Because God has His plans for us, but they will only be executed in His own way and at His own special time. Since we are not in control, as we wait, let's take heart and dwell in His awesome love, and pull through each day with Him holding our hands. He will never let go of our hands, never. So let's not let go of His =)

I know who holds tomorrow

I don't know about tomorrow;

I just live from day to day.

I don't borrow from its sunshine

For its skies may turn to grey.

II don't worry o'er the future,

For I know what Jesus said.

And today I'll walk beside Him,

For He knows what lies ahead.

Many things about tomorrow

I don't seem to understand

But I know who holds tomorrow

And I know who holds my hand.

Every step is getting brighter

As the golden stairs I climb;

Every burden's getting lighter,

Every cloud is silver-lined.

There the sun is always shining,

There no tear will dim the eye;

At the ending of the rainbow

Where the mountains touch the sky.

I don't know about tomorrow;

It may bring me poverty

But the one who feeds the sparrow,

Is the one who stands by me.

And the path that is my portion

May be through the flame or flood;

But His presence goes before me

And I'm covered with His blood.

Because I don't know about tomorrow, there are many things about tomorrow that I don't understand. But one thing I know for sure, that He knows about tomorrow and that He will hold my hand whether it rains or shines. Because He loves us and is faithful that way. =)

The Power of Your Name

Surely children weren't made for the streets

And fathers were not made to leave

Surely this isn't how it should be

Let Your kingdom come

Surely nations were not made for war

Or the broken meant to be ignored

Surely this just can't be what You saw

Let Your Kingdom come here in my heart

And I will live to carry Your compassion

To love a work that's broken

To be Your hands and feet

And I will give with the life that I've been given

And go beyond religion

To see the world be changed

By the power of Your name

The power of Your name

Surely life wasn't made to regret

And the lost were not made to forget

Surely faith without action is dead

Let Your Kingdom come, Lord, break this heart

And I will live to carry Your compassion

To love a work that's broken

TO be Your hands and feet

And I will give with the life that I've been given

And go beyond religion

To see the world be changed

By the power of Your name

The power of Your name

Jesus, Your name is a shelter for the hurting

Your name is a refuge for the weak

Only Your name can redeem the undeserving

Jesus, Your name holds everything I need

And I will live to carry Your compassion,

To love the world that's broken

To be Your hands and feet

And I will give with the life that I've been given

And go beyond religion to see the world be changed

By the power of Your name

He touched me

Shackled by a heavy burden,

'Neath a load of guilt and shame.

Then the hand of Jesus touched me,

And now I am no longer the same.

He touched me, Oh He touched me,

And oh the joy that floods my soul!

Something happened and now I know,

He touched me and made me whole.

Since I met this blessed Saviour,

Since He cleansed and made me whole,

I will never cease to praise Him,

I'll shout it while eternity rolls.

He touched me, Oh He touched me,

And oh the joy that floods my soul!

Something happened and now I know

He touched me and made me whole.

El Shaddai

El Shaddai, El Shaddai

El-Elyon na Adonai

Age to age You're still the same,

By the power of the name.

El Shaddai, El Shaddai

Erkahmka na Adonai

We will praise and lift You high

El Shaddai.

Through Your love and through the ram,

You saved the son of Abraham;

Through the power of Your hand,

Turned the sea into dry land.

To the outcast on her knees,

You were the God who really sees,

And by Your might,

You set Your children free.

El Shaddai, El Shaddai,

El-Elyon na Adonai

Age to age You're still the same,

By the power of the name.

El Shaddai, El Shaddai,

Erkahmka na Adonai,

We will praise and lift You high

El Shaddai

Through the years You made it clear,

That the time of Christ was near,

Though the people couldn't see

What Messiah ought to be.

Though Your Word contained the plan,

They just would not understand

Your most awesome work was done

Through the frailty of Your Son.

El Shaddai, El Shaddai,

El-Elyon na Adonai,

Age to age You're still the same,

By the power of the name.

El Shaddai, El Shaddai,

Erkahmka na Adonai,

I will praise You till I die,

El Shaddai.

The hebrew words, "El Shaddai, El yonna Adonai, Er kham ka na Adonai" mean "God Almighty, God in the highest, Lord. We will love You, Oh, Lord"

His works never fails to amaze me.

Because He is unchanging

Because He is faithful

Because He is loving

Because He is merciful

Because He never fails to hold my hand and guide me through

El Shaddai, El Shaddai, El yonna Adonai, Er Kam ka na Adonai =)

He understands my tears

It's hard to believe He still loves me

Knowing how wrong I have been

When all I can say is I'm sorry

And all I can feel is my sin

He understands, when all I can do is cry

He feels the hurt that on one can see down inside

And when the words get in the way

I know He still hears

For He understands my tears

You may not believe that I'm broken

For all you can see is my smile

Oh, but He hears the heart that's unspoken

And He gives me strength thru each trial

He understands, when all I can do is cry

He feels the hurt that no one can see down inside

And when the words get in the way

I know he still hears

For he understands my tears

OH and when the words get in the way

I know He still hears

For He understands when no one else can

He Understands my tears

This week has been a very tiring one. I was pretty frustrated with myself because I wanted to be productive at work. But I've been feeling very very tired everyday and I just kept falling asleep during work, which I thought was very bad! And I didn't know what to do because I tried sleeping early but I still felt tired anyway. So that very night, I just burst into tears. Because I didn't know what else to do and I was pretty restless even at work. All I could do was to put on a smile and pretend that all was fine. I know I was being very dramatic and all, but I guess that's just me when I'm exhausted. All i wanted was rest and rest but the cycle did not stop. But thank God for understanding my tears. Because when there's no way, He made a way. When no one understood, He understood and even held my hands to guide me through the rough spot. Thank God that after that very night, I didn't have much time to fall asleep at all because I was pretty much busy with training in the lab and all. And the adrenaline rush from lab pretty much gave me the energy that I need. Yup, I may be tired, but still, I felt good. Thank God for His strength and peace! =)

It is well with my soul / The river's gonna keep on rolling

When peace like a river attendeth my soul
When sorrows like sea billows roll
Whatever my lot thou hast taught me to say

It is well, it is well with my soul

You can tell someone you love'em

From the bottom of your heart

And believe that it's the truest thing you've known

And even if you never break the promises you make

The river's gonna keep on rolling on

ANd if you haven't got a dollar

Not a penny to your name

Somebody's gonna miss you when you're gone

And if even if you never find

Just a little peace of mind

The river's gonna keep on rolling on

Keep on rollin' to the ocean

Keep on rollin' to the sea

Keep on rollin' till the love we need

Washes over you and me

God's love is like a river

At every turn and every bend

And faith in Him will turn your heart around

'Cause even though we sin,

There's forgiveness in the end

And the river's gonna keep on rollin' on

Keep on rollin' to the ocean

Keep on rollin' to the sea

Keep on rollin' till the love we need

Washes over you and me

Keep on rollin' till the love we need

Washes over you and me

It is well with my soul

It is well, it is well, with my soul.

I was at Trumpet Praise the other day and "It is well with my soul" was playing in the shop. So I decided to search for the song on youtube and I found this version by Amy Grant instead. I thought this medley of songs is pretty nice and meaningful =)

Love is not a fight

Love is not a place
To come and go as we please

It's a house we enter in

Then commit to never leave

So lock the door behind you

Throw away the key

We'll work it out together

Let it bring us to our knees

Love is a shelter in a raging storm

Love is peace in the middle of a war

And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door

No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

Love will come to save us

If we'll only call

He will ask nothing from us

But demand we give our all