I'm so tired... Guard duty drains me of my energy... Boo...

After reading through my previous posts, I realised my english sucks. There are so many spelling errors... movie became money and reveal became review... pooi! double boo...

WITS presentation at Div HQ this thurs... Guard duty this coming Saturday again... Just kill me ok?!

I need rest!! Revive me please... Enervate!

Finally I'm back! I've been cut off from the world of internet for like 3 weeks. My internet was only restored last tuesday. Wahaha... and I have been busy/lazy to type something here but now, I'm doing it in camp!!.

Many many things happened since 25 June. Andre has flew off to Aussieland where it is freezing cold there. I missed my synergy concert because I did not book in time and I was rather lazy to go out and I WILL not forget to book my In Song concert tickets! That concert is a must watch! I've completed my personal statement (like finally) and my counsellor has vet through it. Still need to make some corrections (Apparently I am good at creating sentences which are very super long and dreary... haha..) to it before its presentable.

Watched Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix with my cousins. The show would be super cool if I didn't read the book. But too bad, I've read it and naturally I will have certain expectations for that movie. Yes, I will have to accept the fact that the movie cannot follow the book from cover to cover. But I guess the director should not make major changes to the story. Then again, I understand that the changes are necessary because the cost in producing a money has to be taken into account. More characters = more money spent. Anyway, storyline aside, the special effects and what have you are definitely cool!! Especially the duel at the Ministry of Magic! Its so so exciting! Though I wish the duel between Voldemort and Dumbledore could be more exciting than just point point, stop, stare and wait for things to happen. It would be good if the golden statues could come alive, like in the book, and protect harry and stuff. woohoo! Overall, not too bad lar...

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows came out finally!!!! This is the best Harry Potter book I've ever read because there is non-stop action in the book! Very very exciting! The story flows very well from one chapter to another. This book definitely answers a lot of questions which might arise in previous books and the ending is simply touching. I almost cried through some parts of the book because certain people died and Harry did something very brave, something which takes someone great courage to do. Shan't review details just in case people have not finish reading the book. But yea... truly enjoyed the book!!! LOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVEEE IT!

Met the wanderers last saturday. IT was sort of a small gathering as 4 out of 7 made it. So happy to be able to see them again. Lunch at the taiwan restaurant opposite my house was fantastic! Its the company... haha... And I met my cousins for karaoke session at Chevrons on Sunday. Its just sing sing sing and eat eat eat at IMM... nothing much but enjoyable =)

Oh well, my Aussie trip has been brought forward from 10 december to 28 november!! I'll be returning on 5 december with Andre. The dates are confirmed and I will be booking air tickets when I go home!! so exciting!!! Can't wait Can't wait =)

Alright... I shall go study for my basic theory now... Hopefully I pass... woohoo!!

And so I bought a skipping rope yesterday. I have no idea why I had the sudden urge to skip but yea, I bought it and I skipped. It must be that disney channel movie, Jump In, which cause me to like skipping suddenly...But seriously, I sucked at it. Haha... I wonder... =X

Today's counselling session is definitely productive. All thanks to my wonderful counsellor =) He gave me some pointers on how I should edit my messy personal statement. Frankly speaking, it was a rather last minute thing because I only came up with my personal statement this morning in office. And I was even editing it on my way to CMPB. How pathetic... But yea, its definitely good to have someone to show me which way to go and how I should phrase my sentences. My counsellor is very learned. He is so deep and his points are so logical and yet profound. Rocks man! Oh yea, I express my concern of fear in flying alone to other countries and he actually gave me some useful pointers on how to curb that fear. Its so true that fear stops us from doing what we want to do. Its like disregarding a good book by looking at its cover instead of its content. If we don't go ahead and do what we want to do and explore, we will regret it one day.

And so, I have begin planning my end of year trip to Aussieland to visit Andre. I've gathered ticket prices to perth for several airlines and most probably I will be taking Qantas... SO CHEAP! (cheaper than SIA definitely...) Also, I will be gathering information about perth, just in case I get lost or something. Tentative date of departure would be the Monday after my ORD, 10 December. woots!

Finally, I have decided to book for the Basic Theory Test. I will be taking mine on 13 August at Ang Mo Kio. ooooh... Can't wait. My mind has been pondering about getting a driver's license lately... Its really convenient to have one I guess... wahaha...

My cousins have gotten their posting quite a while back and one went to SISPEC while the other went to OCS. How interesting... I'm sure the both of them can pull through the training! woohoo!!

Oh well... as for now... its back to work for me... ORD... I'm coming!

PS: Song choon... you can do it! Time will pass very quickly and before you know it, I will have to call you sergeant! As for kian heng... lucky you... so slack... wahaha... poke poke poke... poke yourself... wahahaha...

Dreams are just so fascinating.

Yesterday I had many weird dreams during guard duty. I dreamt that my teeth were falling out one by one and my whole mouth was bleeding (it felt so real...). Then I dreamt that I was outside a church and I saw stevenson... Then someone was praying in tongues before I woke up... This morning when I was sleeping at home, I dreamt that the whole parade square at BMTC was flooded with water and I am suppose to take part in some water sport but I told my team mates (can't remember who...) that I can't swim... Then suddenly, Tay Ping Hui materialise behind me and I can't remember what he did... I guess he was encouraging me or something... I had a lot of interesting dreams during this 2 days but I have forgotten most of them by now...

Guard duty sucked as usual... But time passed by so so quickly. I don't even know if its a good thing or a bad thing. Good that I'm one day closer to my ORD but bad because I don't seem to be able to catch my breath. Hours seemed like minutes to me all of a sudden...

I will be staying at my cousins' house for the next three days because of the Finance Appointment Holder's Seminar... Yew Tee here I come! Can't wait to see how much the finance structure has change after a year...

More concerts coming up! Its Synergy and In Song 07 for me... Can't wait...

The world continues spinning and Life still goes on...

I'm tired. So tired. How I wish I can just take a break from life and rest. Just rest.

I baked muffins today. Just had a strong urge to bake vanilla chocolate chip muffins. Went to Ikea and Giant at Tampines with Choon today too. Tried to find my giant tin of panda biscuits, but there's only the giant box. Saw boxes of nougats too... But they are so expensive... I guess I've lost my addiction for them.

There're so many things which I felt compelled to do all of a sudden. I guess the next big thing will be taking my Basic Theory? Wahaha.. Like finally...

I've been sick since Tuesday. My fever always threaten to come back. Even now, I still feel feverish and all, but definitely better compared to the past few days. Argh... The past few days have been quite miserable all because of the stupid fever! Oh well... Have to thank Andre for taking care of me in camp while I was sick. Really thankful for his care and concern.

La Risonanza IV just flew by. Alumni's performance was not that bad (one of the better ones compared to previous rehearsals.......). The choir did well. The other 2 guest choirs were quite impressive. I could have enjoyed the concert and Alumni's performance more if not for that fever which choose to come a few hours before the concert. Praise God for allowing the fever to subside in time! =) woohoo!

I guess I have evolved into a couch potato. I've been rotting on my sofa since yesterday morning (except for nap time at night). rest rest rest is all i need!

Happy Mother's Day to all Mother's out there!

My parents and I had dinner at Serangoon Gardens Market today, together with my aunts and my cousin. I almost puke after dinner, not because the food sucked but because I was so so full that if you push my stomach, I will vomit everything back out for you.

Anyway, we drove pass my grandma's house on the way there. All of us did the same thing while we were waiting for traffic to move. My parents and I turned to the direction of my grandmother's house and looked at it for quite some time. We did not exchange words after that. Everyone was quiet and deep in thought. I guess I missed that place a lot. It was a place where my cousins would gather every saturday, to play. It was the place where I sort of grew up. Yep, a place filled with memories indeed. Sigh... I wish I could go back there again, just for old times sake. But the place is empty now and I think my uncles and aunts have decided to sell it away. Sigh... Oh well... Move on, Jeremy, Move on...

The SYF Central Judging for Choirs took place on Tuesday. MJChoir got GOLD!!!!! I was like so so happy! Can't stand it... The alumni was like so stress while waiting for the results because we thought MJChoir had a chance of getting silver. Wahaha... but Gold!!! Anyway, this year's competitors are definitely strong. Many many choirs seem to have improved alot and some even sound like they have a chance of getting a Gold. But, the judges this year are very strict too. Hence, the number of Gold with Honors dropped to 3 this year and the number of Gold dropped to 4. I was very surprised that ACJC and AJC missed their Gold with Honors and TPJC and RJC missed their Gold. Really very shocking. But then again, its the Judges' decision, so I shan't comment much.

La Risonanza IV is coming! So exciting. Hopefully the Alumni will sound good on stage since there are 2 other guest choirs and there's the MJ chamber choir too... haha... Can't wait can't wait...

Iwill never be bored with my family because there is just too much drama going on here.

Today, my whole family (mother's side, minus a few peeps) won 4D. Where did they get the number from, you may ask? Its actually from the barbeque pit which we used yesterday at our family gathering. The pit number was PIT 1. So where did the other 3 numbers come from? This is how they get their number...

P looks like a 9
I looks like a 1
T looks like a 7

Therefore, the lucky number is................... 9171! haha... They chose to use the BBQ pit's number because there was a huge fire at the pit yesterday and them being chinese felt that it was very auspicious (hen wang!). So they went to buy the number... haha... And so my mothers's sisters flock over to my place (minus sister number 3) for an animated discussion. Its really easy to find out if one of my family members have won lottery because the warning signal will sound. It will go off at about 7pm every sunday (saturdays too if we don't meet up...) and that will follow with my mother's scream. That very warning signal would be my house phone's "ring ring..."

How interesting...

Murphy sort of like me today.

I tripped and almost fell down on an over head bridge. I was almost knocked down by a bicycle while walking. I stepped on a dead Cockroach. My friend (someone whom I have not met for a long time...) had high fever today and so we were not able to meet up. While I was walking towards the 89 bus stop, I saw the bus left without me.

Looking at things from the brighter side,

at least I didn't fall down flat and injure myself (or even fall onto the expressway... choy choy choy). At least there was someone behind me who called me to watch out, if not I would have been severely injured. At least I didn't kill a living creature (okay... this is cheesy...). At least my friend is not dead, meaning that we can still meet up some other time. At least the next 89 didn't take so long to arrive.

Oh well... Today's choir practice is quite fruitful I guess. We completed Exultate Justi and managed to sing through all 3 songs. Although the songs are still not perfect, at least we see new faces coming for pract. 3 more weeks to Concert! 1 more week to SYF for JC choirs! So exciting. This would also mean that more weekends will be burnt due to intensive practices. I'm still able to handle it so far even though I'm on the verge of cracking already (too tired... boo...) But yea, its kind of healthy as it keeps my mind moving. yippee!

My aunt gave me 2 cook books today! Both books contain baking techniques for desserts and cakes and what nots and apparently, they belonged to my uncle. I don't remember him as a cook when he was still around... Haha... maybe I was too young to remember about such things or maybe it was just a gift to him. But those 2 books are very very interesting! Am going to read it before baking Andre's Super Fudge Chocolate Delight (HA! I remember ok! haha...) next week. Can't wait can't wait...

I am so extremely tired now.
I don't even have the energy to chew my food. Pooi pooi!
I feel like fainting when I stand.
I don't have the mood to do anything.
Even baking today seems like a chore to me.
I am so extremely tired now.

Being unable to sleep for the past few nights sucks. I have no idea why too! Must be those stinking mosquito bites!! Da bian... This combined with guard duty completely drained me of all energy. How sucky!

Oh well... May things be better as each day passes...

And so Montfort Chorale got Bronze for their SYF... Nvm... Its okay... at least they didn't deprove. Yea, definitely am sad that they weren't able to get that silver because they did really well for their Set piece! But, hey, things happen on stage and as a chorister, I should understand that. Oh well, I am glad that they got a Bronze at least and that the hard work they put in did not go to waste. Well done MC! =)

Time flies. Yesterday, I was helping Jan with his SYF set piece for JCs. How much he has changed. When he was in Montfort, he would find ways and excuses to skip choir practice and now when he is in Meridian Choir, he is so enthusiastic about it and even asked me to help him with the songs. How much he has changed. The both of us were looking at some old photos of Montfort Chorale yesterday and boy did I miss those days so much. The fun we had and the many change of conductors we had. It is definitely a very interesting experience.

I miss those days in Log branch where every day is a day of fun and laughter. Where we help each other whenever possible and stay in together. Most of the people in Log branch has left. Yea... I've got to move on. Just can't help but think of those days when School 2 Log Branch existed.

I miss my Meridian Choir days where we were given so much pressure. I still remember the time where we were practising for SYF, when Mr Kwei goes into his SYF mood. When AJC, VJC, TPJC and us come and sing to one another. Where we had to go through so so much to perfect the unperfect-able Shoga. Where we sang the set piece the best (out of the 4 choirs) but screw it up on SYF day itself.

I miss my Meridian Day. I miss Mrs Chong's cold maths jokes, Mr Lee's GP consultation and humour, Mr Sung's patient teaching, us making Mrs Quek frustrated, Ms Soh's care for us. I miss Mr Eric Chua's unending patience for training me in my pull up and his never ending encouragement for me during PE. I miss the fun times I had in class with the wanderers in J2 and with Magan, weilin, weeling and josephine in J1.

I have so so many fun times in my life which I will never forget. And I am so thankful that I am able to have so many happy memories which I can keep till the end. Yea, praise God!

Oh well, such is life, life is as such... Let's wait and see what else is installed for me in future...

By the way, please support MJChoir (if there is anyone out there reading this...)! Come for La Risonanza IV!!! Come come come! =)

Today, my family gathered at Carribean for my grandma's birthday celebration. The food was great but I guess I was too tired to even enjoy myself. Futhermore, most of my cousins are not around, so its rather quiet. Oh well... I'm really too tired to type anything so I will just post photos. Oh yea! Today's service concludes the 10 ways to maintain our healing. Its really very enlightening for me. Shall talk about it the next time I blog. Here are the photos...

The final final product with strawberries from China!





The Swimming Pool. My whole family was watching the swimming pool for a good half an hour at the Clubhouse because they were very very fascinated with an ang moh throwing their kids into the swimming pool, literally. haha...

The future bridge to dunno where...

The nice fountain...

And finally... the giant ferris wheel... I just can't help but take a photo of it... again... haha...

I went back to Montfort today to listen to Montfort Chorale before they sing for SYF this coming Wednesday. And to be honest, I am really very very surprised when I heard them. They have improved tremendously! Its like they went through some crash course in choral singing. Their set piece was very nicely done (Not really gold standard but definitely better than the standard they produce for Sunset). They sang in one voice, they moved together as a choir, there was actually interpretation to the song, every note was correct and most importantly, they actually show some choral technique! Never in my life have I heard them sing so well ever since Mr Yong left. Seriously, I am really very impressed and proud of them man! Woots! Yagi Bushi was a stunner! The song was definitely of a high standard (comparable to their jap proverbs i guess) given that they have never sung such songs in TTBB before. And they are able to deliver it reasonably well. I admit that the song wasn't perfect as there were messy entries and sometimes they will just slow down and there are definitely some frivolous notes sung during the song but then, its really a great achievement for them. They suck when I heard them in Jan. 3 - 4 months later, they are able to produce a standard like that, its really very good. As for Ave Maria, I find that they can do more for the interpretation because they sounded so chor lor when they sing this soft mellow piece. But oh well... they managed to pull through a difficult sacred piece like that, I have nothing to say (although they went sharp in the end =X) haha... Hopefullly they will be able to get a Silver for SYF and prove to the school that they can be better than the band and most importantly, they have substance! Kudos to Mr Wilson Goh for helping them improve so much!!!! =)



Anyway, after choir pract, Ernest and I made our way to Cafe Cartel for dinner then he came over to my place to see me bake a cake for my grandma's birthday. Ernest Lim Wee Kiat actually helped me to decorate the cake. He sucked at it. So do I... haha... The both of us were practically laughing our heads off while decorating the cake, coming up with funny ideas of how we should decorate the cake and all. Its really very happening. I will have to thank Ernest for helping me out today! Thank you Ernest! Anyway, this is the end result...



Cocoa pops wordings were done by yours truly! Thank you thank you! Haha... oh well... I will post more pics tomorrow. I am so so so tired now. Out since 8.30am for MJChoir Alumni pract, then rushed down to Montfort for MC pract which ended at about 5pm. Didn't have time to eat and drink man... Okay... Shall go and sleep now... Goodie night


Quote of the day: Let's see the cake of the fate...
No prizes for guessing who said that... ha!

Its home alone again for me. My parents have flown off to China for their holiday early this morning while my brother will not be back from work till like midnight (not that he is working OT or anything but he will most probably be out with his friends...) So its just me, myself and I, alone at home. And I ended up watching Night at the Museum again at home. Funny movie that is... My dumb dumb wants to speak... haha...

I'll be on off tomorrow because I'll be going back to Montfort tomorrow to see how the choir is doing. Their SYF is coming up soon and I so hope that they will do well for it this year. Hopefully they can maintain their bronze or even move up to a silver (so that the band won't laugh at them anymore since they got a bronze this year... ha!) I will have to deliver old choir uniforms to them too, to help the needy students.

Yesterday's choir pract at Meridian was nonetheless, fruitful. Despite most of the uni gals having exams and stuff, quite a number turned up for practice. woohoo! And its only when we enter our wonderfully horrible choir room (I so miss that place...) that we found out how horrible we sound. And lucky for us, Mr Yong came before our Alumni Practice end, so we asked him to work on the 3 pieces with us. And so, we've decided to start having intensive practices from next Saturday onwards, to improve on our 3 songs. diao diao...

After so many months, I finally went out with my cousins yesterday. We went to watch Meet the Robinsons and boy were we so inspired by that movie. Keep Moving Forward! yea... and Hooray! I've made a mistake which means I will get to learn! That kind of thing... Its certainly much more interesting than Mr Bean's Holiday... Oh well... After the movie, we went to New York New York to taste the most spicy chicken drumlets of all time. One piece of the drumlet caused me to down one whole glass of water. One small bite of the drumlet caused Amanda to down half a glass of water. How small is the bite you may ask.... This small....

And we had to de-skin the chicken to finish them. How sad can we get...

Before

After

We had a great time yesterday definitely. Hopefully we can go to the Austrailia trip end of this year after their exams. Woohoo!!

I banged my head against the door the other day. It gave me a pimple and a swelling. Boo... And today, I was almost late for service because complacent me thought I could make it in time by leaving home 45 mins earlier... But the bus never came... And when I was about to walk to Compass point to take a cab, bus 83 drove to the bus stop happily.. And when I reach Compass point taxi stand, there was a super long queue and no cabs were in sight. Then I began walking upwards towards the 89 bus stop to try to get a cab. But there were no cabs in sight too! da bian... and It was like 11am (15 minutes to service) and I was like so panicky... don't even know whether I can make it in time. So in the end I took bus 27 to the busstop before the expressway and I got a cab there. In the end, I reached church just in time... woot! Praise the Lord!!

Alright... Let's all Keep Moving Forward! Put the pass behind us! Let go of all unhappy worries and troubles and delight in the presence of God!

That was random... oh well... Let's see what God has installed for me this coming week..

Happy Easter everyone!! I spent my Easter Sunday baking away at the Kitchen today. I have been waiting for today to come because I wanted to try out that White Chocolate Raspberry Cheesecake recipe which I've found at all recipes. It didn't really turn out the way I wanted it to be because my mother bought duo chocolate chips (white and milk chocolate together) instead of white chocolate and my raspberry sauce didn't turn out as thick as it should be. Hmmm... So the cake became brown in colour (instead of white) and I don't think the thickness of the sauce affected the cake much. Oh well... I didn't take a photo of it because I am too lazy to do so.


I'm just so so so tired because I've been sleeping late and waking up early every day for Good Friday Service, Choir practice and Sunday Service. I really don't mind waking up early for these stuff but the lack of sleep is causing me to be a little heavy in the head. And so, I messed up the kitchen in the end because I can't think clearly and I felt really disorientated and disorganised. So pooi pooi...


I've finally found my Mascarpone Cheese at Cold Storage when I was out with Choon on Friday!! So I went home immediately to make my long awaited tiramisu which didn't turn out very well too... (How irritating...) I don't know if it should be creamy or cake like. But it turned out creamy in the end. Maybe I should not have used my electric mixer to mix my mascarpone cheese and egg yolk mixture because it turned out that the cheese became watery!!! I was so shocked that I began panicking (the uncertainty of whether I'm doing it correctly kills me... pooi pooi!). I wanted to throw the whole thing away but I heard a distant voice from afar (Sharon's one actually) reminding me of the countless children who are dying from hunger in Africa everyday. So, I fought the the feeling of imperfection and continued on with the journey of producing my first ever tiramisu. And so, that's how my creamy/ failed (I think...) tiramisu came about (no photos... Its too disgusting to be posted online...). It turned out that my mum's friend said that the tiramisu tasted nice... I've tried it. It was okay... But I don't find it perfect yet...


Somehow, the only thing I've baked over the pass few days which turned out well was my Apple crisp. The look is okay but it was too bloody sweet!!! pooi pooi pooi! But its really very nice (not praising myself but the recipe) if I cut down the sugar content by half. I felt diabetic after taking one small bite of that apple crisp. Comparable to the constipation and diabetes inducing brownie I produced last week... Woot!! Here's one photo of how it looked like in the oven...





Oh well, I enjoy baking because it sort of relaxes my mind. Sometimes it helps me think through stuff and sort out my thoughts. Yea, its one way to calm the irritating beast within me. People ask me to sell what I bake but I feel awkward doing it for money. I sort of want to do things as and when I like to do with no worries whether I will poison the next guy who takes a bit out of my stuff. Also, its really laborious to bake things in big quantities. I just one to bake it, savour it and clean up. haha... Its just my way of relaxing I guess...

Alright, Choir practice have been very very productive so far! We've chose our 3 songs and finished learning 2 of them. So exciting! People who wants to support MJChoir and its alumni (3 songs only...), Please please buy tickets!! Details are as follows:

Meridian Junior College Choir presents:
La Risonanza IV
Date: 24 May 07
Venue: Victoria Concert Hall
Time: 7.30pm
Tix price: $12


Lastly, I'm really really broke! Phewy... I've been spending a lot on movies and food for the past few days and I think I'm buying things on impulse. Like yesterday, while I was waiting for Ernest and Edwin at Vivo City, I went into Candy Empire and came out with 2 packets of biscuits (Buy one get one free... I'm no cheapo ok!) worth $7.90. Then on Friday, while I was buying ingredients with choon on Friday, I bought one packet of M&Ms, 2 packets of Marks and Spencer cookies, Oreo cookies and 1 packet of marshmellows just because I felt like buying it. Now my house if filled with biscuits and I have no idea when I can finish them... da bian... I'm so dead... I'm so dead... The money in my pocket is replaced with guilt (for not saving... damn it!)... Oh well... I guess I really have to start saving and learn how to control my expenses (I'm a finance clerk for goodness sake!) Alright... here are some photos taken yesterday with Ern and Edwin (Such cam whores are we!)

Through this cam whoring experience, I realised that my face is very small... Boo... Oh well... To end off, Ernest, the following is for you:

Seek ye first the kindom of God

And His righteousness

And all His things shall be given unto you

Hallelu Hallelujah

Recess over loh!!!

And so I had my first weekend guard duty yesterday. I'm quite blessed actually because I had a lot of resting time yesterday and there was no turn out or anything. So yea, lucky lucky me. Anyway, guard duty is definitely not fun but one thing about doing it at SFT is that you get to see aeroplanes land one after another. Not that its a very interesting sight or anything (it gets boring after a while because the planes just keep on coming...) but you get to see planes from different airlines. Some are foreign but most are common (like, duh!). That is one way to past time when you are walking about, making sure that no suspicious personnel can be found lurking around the vicinity. Oh well... One month down... another 8 more months to go...

After returning home from guard duty today, I decided to bake something to relax myself. And I'm proud to announce that I've produced the ultimate constipation causing brownie. I'm not praising my own cooking but the brownie is very chocolatey itself, and its coated with chocolate icing made from cocoa powder, butter, icing sugar and honey. Woooooooh! No doubt, it will definitely cause constipation and if you're unlucky enough, diabetes mellitus... haha... Shall see the reaction of my friends tomorrow... wooohooo

Another exciting week ahead for me! Good Friday service, MJChoir Alumni Practice, MCA lunch and my grandma's birthday at my cousins' house. Woots!

This is what I've learnt from my counsellor today...

What causes insecurities in a friendship? Its the unmet expectations that gives rise to this insecurities. Insecurities leads to paranoia which ends up in frustration. This could also lead to destruction of a friendship instead of development/maintenance of a friendship as one would tend to say hurtful and accusatory words to one's friend. Define your expectations and think about it properly. Are they demanding? Is it difficult for your friend to meet that expectation? If yes, moderate that expectation. Let go of these difficult expectations and not let it ruin your friendship just because your friend is unable to meet it.

Never ever accuse your friend for something which he is not feeling. If you are unsure, clarify and don't accuse him or her of feeling this way because you will never know how he feels unless you clarify. To build a friendship, you have to be nice about it and not be harsh because that is not how you should behave. What level do you want to bring your friendship to?

If you know that things are not like that but you cannot seem to stop thinking about the worst then "thought stopping" methods have to come in. There will definitely be happy and enjoyable moments in a friendship. Why do you decide to develop a friendship with a person if you don't like him in the first place? Therefore, distract yourself by giving one loud clap or smacking your leg to stop ruminating about the bad and use that interval of distraction to replace these negative thoughts with the positive. This may help stop you from thinking the unthinkable and maybe even paranoia. Trust your friend for he did not do anything to make you distrust him. Build this friendship and not destroy it.

........................... Chapter closed............................

Book burnt

Yesterday was quite an exciting day! The alumni went down to Siglap South CC for MJChoir practice. The Choir definitely sounded great! Beati Quorum and Yoru. 2 very beautiful songs indeed. Hopefully they will be able to get their Gold with Honors this year... Can't wait man...

Anyway, the alumni will most probably be performing for La Risonanza IV this year. Also, if all things go well, we might be joining them for their Pattaya trip this coming July!! So exciting!! Really can't wait man! I definitely need more practice since I've not been singing properly for so so long... All my choral technique seems to have disappeared. Damn... Oh well... its time to sing at home more again... wahahaha...

Met up with the 7 wanderers yesterday. Finally, after 7 months, all 7 of us gathered at Safra Tampines Sakura to have our "Reunion" dinner. The gathering was great! We laughed and ate and laughed some more. We turn ghost stories into comedies and suicide attempts to interesting debates on how the person actually die. We talked about Meridian and how different it is now since quite a number of our teachers left. Its really fun. Wee ling has her own car now and she drove us all home. How nice of her =) Her car is big and very cool!!! A honda civics with a digitalised speed-o-meter (maybe its common now... I'm a sua gu can?) and the interior of the car is very very nice! Not bad... Oh well, all 7 of us squeezed into her car after dinner, and we went to the playground at granny's house to have a chit chat. The the out of the 4 girls, siew li seems to be very stress with her course, sophie seems tied down with her readings, wee ling and wen feng seems to be quite alright with their studies at the moment. As for me and Meng yang, all we are concerned about is to ORD and start our studies. Both of us will be entering NUS FOS together!! woots! But still, unsure of what we want to do. Somehow, it makes me think how all of us will be like when time passes. What will all of us be doing in future? I know I want to be a teacher but somehow, I still feel a little uncertain of my decision. The rest are also uncertain of what they want to do... Hmmm... Whatever it is, hopefully all of us will be contented with what we want in future and one day, we might sit in a restaurant, in our working attire (or maybe not), talking/bitching about the stuff we do at work... hmmmm..... Here are some photos which we took last night... Take note of wee wee's beautiful car!!!

As for today, my family and I went to Sakura for dinner. Which Sakura? Safra Tampines... Me and my itchy mouth... Should have kept quiet when my mum was asking for suggestions on where to have our dinner. So I had a second round of Sakura today. As a tradition for all buffets, my cousins and I will compete to see who will be the last to finish eating. The first ever competition was at Pariss International (Marina Square). I came in fourth (aka last place). As for today, I came in fourth again (Da bian...). But I'm not in last place this time round because "Here comes a new challenger!". Muahahahaha... So I shall take comfort that I drop out after a 12 year old declare that he is full... Hahaha... Here is our pai hang bang for today...

In last place, we have Mr Jonathan Goh, the 12 year old....

Its not supposed to be a monkey pose... Its supposed to be just the pinkie showing to represent last place =)

In fourth place, we have... Me! The supposedly NS trained...

Note sad face... boo hoo...

In third place, we have... Sharon!! From second place to third place..

And finally, we have a tie in first place... Samuel and Shawn, the wonder twins!

So that's that for dinner. After giving up at fourth place, my back actually hurts quite alot... Hopefully I don't suffer from kidney failure or anything. Oh well, let's see what's God's plan for me =)

Lastly, I think that they should ban people from playing music through their handphone speakers on buses! Especially when its a mix of hokkien songs and chinese/english pop! The agony I went through just to go home today is unimaginable. Here I am, trying to read my book and there those people are, playing songs at full blast, ruining the quiet atmosphere of the new 72 bus model. Da bian... Oh well... will just have to bare with it won't I...

Frustration Brushtration... A lethal weapon I say...

Yes. Indeed I have not been feeling right for the past few days. I'm glad to have trashed/talked things out. I guess its all up to me to fight this evil within me. Away you evil frustration! Away!
Thanks =)

MJChoir alumni meeting this sat morning at Siglap South CC... Can't wait!
7 wanderers gathering at Sakura... Can't wait!!!

And so... In the last and final session of the TIPS course, we learnt about relationships.

There are 4 phases to a relationship and they are "Getting started", Development, Maintenance and Termination. Most of us will not have a problem with the "Getting Started" stage as it is the basis of each relationship. However, most of us might have a problem with the development and maintenance of a relationship. The development of a relationship will decide how far you regard a person (as a close friend or an acquaintance) and when you go pass that stage, it is how you maintain this relationship that determines its future.

Sometimes, I really don't know which direction each friendship is heading because you don't know how the other party is feeling or thinking and sometimes paranoia kicks in to make matters worst. Sometimes the other party seems to treat you differently compared to the past and you read it as a friendship going downhill. I guess it all depends on how much you trust this friendship and how much you treasure it that helps in the development. During the discussion at TIPS, the facilitator was saying that if somehow one starts to ignore you or becomes hostile to you all of a sudden, just let go of that friendship and end it nicely. Because there is no point holding on to it and make your life miserable just because that person doesn't seem to want to carry on with the friendship anymore. Yes, true if its an acquaintance. But then again, what if its a friend whom you really treasure a lot? Someone who has been with you through thick and thin, someone who has been your best pal for a very long time? It ain't easy letting go of this friendship if things become worst.

Oh well... I guess its time to change ourselves if our attitude and character is not helping a friendship at all. Of course, a person should not change himself just to fit in or please a someone else. However, if he is behaving like a childish idiot, its high time that he wake up his idea and change for the better (not directing this to anyone at all...). Sigh... I guess I'm holding on to friendship too tightly and I'm not giving myself any breathing space. But I seriously don't want to give up any friendship that I treasure. Oh well, like what I've said, I will just have to have faith in them and not worry... Trust in God is also important...

Anyway, Choon, Chase and I met up today for a meal before Chase enters the forbbiden land this coming Friday. We went to the Singapore Art Museum to take a look and the art pieces there are definitely intriguing and interesting. Each art piece left us deep in thought. Of course, me, being the one who is not artistically(if there is such a word) inclined, just enjoyed the beauty of the artpieces, not so much of the thinking. But its definitely an interesting trip.

Met my family at Marina Square after that. Somehow, it feels as though half of Singapore has decided to visit Suntec City today for the IT fair. Its scary to see people squeezing through the over head bridge leading to Suntec. For a moment there, I thought the bridge was going to collapse... Its so crowded that the queue started from escalator which leads to the over head bridge from City link mall (or even way before that...). Luckily there wasn't stampede or anything... muahahaha...

Alrighty, service at church today is definitely very enlightening. Great great great!!! =) Shall end here by posting a few photos taken today...