Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Son of God
Hold my hand and walk with me
You're the Light that makes me see
On this path my soul You lead
O my Shepherd walk with me
I need You more then breath
You're my hope in You I live
Angels worship at Your throne
Power and Glory to You alone
My Saviour
Glorious one
My Redeemer
Living in my heart
Now and forever
Your Kingdom come
Jesus Son of God
Jesus Son of God
I need You more then breath
You're my hope in You I live
Angels worship at Your throne
Power and Glory to You alone
My Saviour
Glorious one
My Redeemer
Living in my heart
Now and forever
Your Kingdom come
Jesus Son of God
Jesus Son of God
Jesus,O Jesus
Holy is The Lamb of God
Jesus,O Jesus
Worthy is The Lamb of God
My Saviour
Glorious one
My Redeemer
Living in my heart
Now and forever
Your Kingdom come
Jesus Son of God
Jesus Son of God
I love this song so so much... So so nice!!

Sunday, November 27, 2005

It had been a long time since I last stepped into Nativity Church. Yesterday, Paul asked me to go to Nativity to listen to the combined choir practice for Christmas. Wow... They were amazing. Just amazing... They sang Exultate Deus, O Holy Night, I Wander as I Wander (By John Rutter) and Angel's Carol (By John Rutter). VJ Choir sang Exultate Deus for the Choir Olympics last year and after listening to Nativity choir last night, I was so shocked and yet amazed by their standard. They sounded quite like the recording done by VJ choir. Considering that they practice only once every week for that song and the choir comprised of people from different age groups (both young and old), making it difficult for them to come together and meet, they actually sounded quite good! Even though there were only 4 basses and 10 over sopranos, the basses can still be heard very clearly! Wow... I miss singing with them. In fact, I miss singing in a choir... Sigh... I remembered I joined the Nativity Choir for the past two years, singing for Monty Thursday (Holy Thursday), Good Friday and Easter Vigil. The experience is definitely wonderful! Anyway, I am very happy to be able to listen to them sing again because it has been more than a year since I last saw the aunties and uncles.

I feel quite happy today. Being able to go out with my family and cousins... haha... Funny bunch of people. Today's service was rather enriching too! It's about the Manila Miracle Revival and we get to listen to some of the gospelighters' testimony on the event. The miracles are really so great! So wonderful! And I am constantly reminded that with faith, anything is possible and that is the one message that I really need at this point of time... haha... Family and friends. They are just so important in our life! But whatever it is, life is brief and we will enter a better and wonderful place in future when we return to God! Woohoo! Praise God for all that he has done for us!

Friday, November 25, 2005

Finally, the A level Examinations are over... The gruelling 3 weeks which we all have to go through has finally come to an end. I know I should be happy and all but I just feel weird... lost... confused... By quite a number of things.

In less than 2 weeks time, I will be opening a new chapter of my life. 8 of December will be the day I give up my freedom for the nation (hahaha =x) and I guess I am feeling a little scared. I really don't know how life will be like in there (obviously)... sigh...

It has been more than a month since I felt depressed... Through this period of time, I've learnt to really ignore my troubles and worries in preparation of my examinations. I guess the exams serve as a "distraction" for me to run away from my feelings. So many things happened through this period of time. I have drawn myself closer to the 7 wanderers. During the examination period, we went to Orchard to relax and shop around even though we still have 3 papers left. After our last second paper, we went to watch Harry Potter together even though we still have 1 paper left. I really feel so happy together with my bunch of friends and I really thank them for making my life in Meridian so colourful. While we were out, I just feel weird at first... I was reminded of many many things... Things which I am thankful and grateful for because it made me very happy... And yet, I feel sad... Sad that things may not be the same again... Things change so quickly through this period of time. I'm trying to move on... just move on...

Sometimes I really wonder... When one says, "We must keep in contact k?" or "We will definitely be friends forever!" To what extent will one truly go out and fulfill this statement. I had a friend once during lower secondary. A close senior and friend. He would always ask me to keep in contact with him. But after he went to JC, we just did not keep in touch with each other. And there you go, one close friend lost... Now, I am trying to treasure the friends I have now and hopefully, as we move on in life, our friendship will never fall...

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Footprints in the Sand
One night a man had a dream. He dreamt he was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonged to him, and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that if happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it. "LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all teh way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."
The LORD replied, "My precious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."
This story is so inspiring. Indeed, the LORD is always by our side when we most needed HIM. Whenever I feel down and sad and I start to pray, I know that HE is comforting me and trying to make me feel better. And I really feel better in the end. God really helped me get through the most troubled times in my life and I am so thankful for that. Praise God! Today, I feel better after what happened during the past 3 weeks. God answered my prayer and I am so grateful for that! Never doubt HIM. HE IS THE TRUE AND LIVING GOD! Hallelujah! Praise God!
John 14:6
Jesus said,"I am the way, the truth and the life. No one
comes to the Father except through me.

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Woohoo!! The A levels is coming!!! 3 more days... I don't even know if I am prepared. I feel prepared for Chemistry (Abit lar...), I feel ok for maths... As for Biology, I just pray hard that I can answer whatever questions that they throw to me because I have not been practicing TYS for Biology but keep on doing TYS for Chem and Maths... Hopefully, I will be ready by then.

Hmmm... While all my friends are studying so hard at home, I can still find time to slack!! I am so crazy!!! Not as if I am a smart ass or what... but I have not motivation to study... SO SO BAD!!! SCREAM!!!! On Thursday, I went to Pasir Ris Park with my family and my cousins and I went cycling. 5 days to A levels and I still can go cycling... haha... I am just so crazy... Anyway, I guess I need that break because I have been at home for the past few days mugging my butt out for the A levels. Ahhhh... How I hope it won't be a re run of my O levels...

Thursday was a very fun day for me I guess. The cycling session with my cousins was great! It had been a while since I last cycled (In september actually... haha) and as usual, many memories flow pass my mind (I am so sentimental... gosh!). We drove past Costa Sands Resort and I remembered by carolling session there when I was in Secondary 1. We combined with Pei Cai choir and sang right in front of the swimming pool. I can still picture myself wearing that purply pink hawaiian shirt and black pants and singing the Christmas carol. Then, it rained suddenly (I don't think its because of our singing...) so we had to move in doors. We just sang and sang and sang. Even if there was no one listening to us, we just keep on singing. haha... It was rather fun! So relaxed and enjoyable! Hmmm... I guess I was a happy little kid then. No troubles, no worries... Just enjoy enjoy enjoy. But, hey, as we grow up, we have more responsibilities and I guess being busy with so many things is inevitable. Anyway, we celebrated Mrs Lee's birthday then... Haha... Although Mrs Lee can be very nasty, I know she is still a nice lady inside (somewhere...). Thinking back on the way she act and speak, I can't help but laugh at her. She got so many funny actions. Even when she scolds, its also funny. But her character a bit bad lar... So we I shan't say much...

Then, as I cycled through Pasir Ris Park, I remembered how my family used to camp there, by the sea. My cousins and I will sit around and talk through the night. The adults will talk among themselves. Hmmmz... It was just so fun.

Aiya... For now, I guess I will just have to live through the next 3 weeks before I can start enjoying all I want... Time passes very quickly indeed... It will end soon... soon...

Praise God!

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Great... Another day has past and its one more day closer to the A levels (Which also means that it is one day closer to the end of A levels!). All I want is my two weeks of relaxation before I enter the army. Sigh... so fast...

Anyway, I have been thinking about my past lately. Today, as I was playing One Single Light on my keyboard, I was thinking about Montfort Chorale (Montfort Music Society then...) and how time haS past so quickly. Yesterday, I read through posts which I had written in the past and they were about how I would miss my friends and how I would miss my school. Now, two years have already past and my friends in Montfort Chorale has already left Montfort for a year and another batch of juniors have graduated this year. So fast... So so fast...

Thank God for allowing us to keep in touch always. Even though most of us have already entered different schools, we still kept in touch here and there and we also had MCA meetings at my house every saturday (not many turn up lar... but still a gathering...). Praise God! May our friendship grow stronger each year and may we never fall! MCA forever! haha...

I guess I had really went through alot since my secondary school days. During my lower sec days, I had a very fierce and bit*hy form teacher and I survived those two years of "misery". Actually, it was rather fun as my lower sec class was somewhat united and we know how to handle situations. Hiakzz! Then, during my upper sec days, I had many wonderful teachers whom I truly respect. I found a very close and fun group of friends and we named ourselves the planets and Holland V Montfort. haha... It was really very very funny those days. My Chemistry Communication Challenge which I will definitely not forget as we Chem Crusaders had really learnt a lot of things from it and we also learnt to be independent as Mrs Quek was on MC for a long period of time and we had to do most of the things ourselves during the finals. At least, we got into the finals and we are already very happy about it! Of course, not forgetting my choir days in Montfort. Having to change a conductor almost every year was something very very unpleasant. I have described the "history" of my days in choir before under the post on happy fish i think... haha... I will not forget my wonderful 3M1E and my wonderful wonderful choir committee and choir members... Yea... All these things have really created a huge impact on me. And these memories will stay by me forever.

Life in a Junior College is so brief and short. During the first three months of last year, I was praying like crazy that I could enter Meridian. Now, I have officially graduated from Meridian. Through these two years, I have learnt a lot of things not just in terms of studies. I've learnt to conquer my fears, treasure things which I really don't wish to lose and also, work towards my goal. I've achieved many many things in JC too. I had the experience of staging 3 concerts and had sang in a combined choir before. I even experienced how it feels like to get a Gold for SYF! haha... The choir really worked very hard for SYF. We went through a lot with Mr Kwei and Mr Yong and I guess, we have earned and learnt many many things out of it. Although we were aiming for Gold with Honors, a Gold is still good enough since we are the only choir which is not under the Choral Excellence Programme. Yea! All these things, I truly miss.

Looking back at my past, I really can't help but feel that I am really very very lucky. Really lucky to have people who care, to be exposed to so many things. Thank God for allowing all these things to come into my life! As for now, I shall post some random photos again, photos which really make me think about what I have now and what I had in the past... I will definitely treasure my friends now because I really don't want to regret if anything is to happen in future. (*Touch wood*). Anyway, here are the photos in both my JC and secondary school days... enjoy...
Friends

3 Musketeers and 1 Extra! (2005)

The 3 Musketeers and 1 Extra! notice that our position is the direct opposite from the picture above... haha

Jason, me and Choon

Mr Chua and my clique in class... haha

A trip to Sentosa after prelims!

The planets without Melvin and Ching Si... (During La Risonanza I)

The planets/Holland V

The Chem Crusaders with Mrs Quek and Mrs Tan-Sin

MJChoir Days

MJChoir!

MJChoir Basses 2005

Year 2 Choir members

La Risonanza II

Not forgeting my beloved Montfort Choir peeps!

Montfort Chorale 2002 (After Founder's Day)

Montfort Chorale 2003 (Before SYF 2003)

Montfort Chorale 2004 (During Montpressivo I)

The beloved committee of 2003

We just rock! (Taken last year)

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Studying all day seems to make me feel so crazy. I was singing facts to myself as I was studying... Really, one of these days, I will definitely move to the wonderful village/chalet located near my house. I will just post some family photos online for the fun of it... Anyway, no one realised that I have reopened my blog, so who cares... right? haha... Here are some of the people whom I love and treasure...
Family


Sunday, October 30, 2005

Wow... I feel so much better today! After attending service today, I feel so light. As if my troubles and worries are lifted away. Praise God! My questions are answered through today's service. I feel as if God is telling me what to do and how to overcome my problems and it really feels good!

It has been a long time since I had such a good laugh. Today, my cousins and I were trying to take photos of ourselves by ourselves. smackin! haha... I shall post photos online after I learn how to do it. I remembered the last time since I had such a good laugh was when choon came to my house and we were typing this long funny message on the Montfort Chorale MSN groups. Sigh... Time really passes so quickly. It feels as if I have just entered Meridian yesterday. Although the time spent in Meridian is a short 1 +++ years, I guess it is a rather fruitful one. Sigh... My A levels are coming. Hopefully, I will be prepared by then... sianess...






Our first attempt to take a picture of the five of us by ourselves...















Our second attempt...















Our third attempt...













Finally... one successful attempt...









My cousins and I were like one bunch of crazy people sitting by the bench trying to take pictures of ourselve... I was laughing my head off man! haha... Anyway, it was really fun and I truly enjoyed myself. Not just that night but the whole day. Thank you Lord!

Saturday, October 29, 2005

Sigh... The A levels are coming. I am feeling so stressed and depressed. So many things are bothering me now. I really don't know what to do but to turn to God. I will always feel so comforted after talking to God but things will always be ruined after some time when my stupid brain starts to lose faith and think about those pessimistic things. Sometimes I really feel like I am going to go mad soon. I am really trying my best to hold on and persevere towards the end. I am really trying my best to be strong in my Faith. Why must the evil devil ruin this for me? I feel so weak, so vulnerable.

This past two weeks have not been a very good one for me. I guess I am just being affected by so many things now. I want to do well for my A levels. I don't want to repeat the same mistakes I've made during my O levels. And yet, it seems that history is repeating itself again. Sigh... I really feel so numb, so tired! How I wish this chapter of my life will end soon. Sigh...

Trust in God and in Him you will find great riches. Faith, I tell you, can move mountains.

How I wish I will not be affected so easily... How I wish time will pass by quickly... How I wish I can be strong, stronger than before...

Whatever it is, PRAISE GOD! for being my guide, for being by my side whenever I am feeling sad, down and depressed, for calming me down whenever I feel agitated, for guiding me through each day!

Thursday, March 24, 2005

Saturday, January 15, 2005

Wow... 2 weeks since school started. Everything is happening so quickly. Got into a new class. Had great teachers! Received my enlistment notice... 2 chapters for each subject covered in just 2 weeks. Its so fast. I am getting tired more and more easily. Lost my stamina and all. Help me!

Anyway, MJC choir will be having a concert! woohoo! SYF is confirmed. Year 1s are enthusiastic. 8 male Year 1s. Haiz... am really really very tired. Lost. Montfort Chorale improved quite alot. whatever... this entry has no direction... going to do homework liaoz... haizz

Sunday, December 26, 2004

Christmas came and went...

Heyzz! belated merry christmas! Hmmmz... I guess this year's Christmas eve was the best i had ever had in my life... Last year was best Christmas day... haha...

Joel's House
This year Joel invited me and a group of friends to his house to celebrate Christmas again! =) As usual the food was great and also I was laughing like crazy again. Got to met a few of my friends whom I had not met for a looonnnnngggg time. Wow! Great to see them again. Jason Tang and Nikki always amuse me with their bitching and jokes whenever I am with them. They never fail to make me laugh till my stomach hurts. Met Ching Si too, someone I have not met ever since the East Coast BBQ gathering thingy... Things changed. Time passes so quickly and here we are in 2004 waiting for 2005 to come... sigh... Anyway, there was the usual singing of carols. I only sang the 12 days of Christmas with Joel and family before taking my leave.

Mid-Night Mass
Rushed down to Nativity Church immediately from Joel's house to catch the Christmas Service, "Hear the Joyous News". Wasn't feeling good when i was in the bus. Tight chest, shallow breathing and what have you. I just felt so uncomfortable and of course, rather nervous and shaky. I wonder why... But the feeling left me when i was at church, listening to the choir sing and all. I feel so safe and happy when i am in the house of God. =) Ah... Happiness... The combined choir sang well on that night. Actually, I thought i would be hearing the choir sing by myself outside the church. But Clement came for the Midnight mass and he decided to stay outside the church with me throughout the service. Hiakz... Glad that he came, if not I would have been lonely and not only that, i would not have attended the Mid night mass. Hmmmz... Its my first time attending the Mid night mass and the feeling was great. Although Clement and I were talking away throughout the course of the mass (oops... haha =x), the atmosphere was alright (Because of the singing i guess... haha). It has been a long time since i attended mass (the last time i went was when i am singing with the combine choir for easter vigil) and its great to attend mass after a long break from it.

Christmas Day
Sigh... Christmas isn't Christmas till it happens in your heart...
This is so true. I didn't have the Christmas feeling this year... Its more like a Mother's birthday thing than a Christmas day... Went to Paul's house for awhile to release some boredom but still like that... haha... Haizz.... as I grow older, i begin to lose the christmasy feeling. Although there was gift exchange with my friends, card sending as usual, but its still like that... Normal. Christmas marks the 1 week count down to school reopen. Sianness... Its gonna be a tiring 2005 for me. The tension will definitely be great and I am definitely going to be stressed out like nobody's business. Haiz...

God work miracles. I believe in it... do you?
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you." Matthew 7:7

May I have a new beginning next year. May everyone have a blessed 2005...


Friday, December 24, 2004

Christmas Eve is here!

Halo people! Okay... fine... i've been quite lazy these few days... Anyway, Christmas day is tomorrow!! yippee! Looking forward to tonight though. Will be going to Joel's house later and will rush down to Nativity for their "Hear the Joyous News!" at 11pm.

I was at Junction 8 just now with my friend and we sort of met this group of noisy girls giggling and talking about chrisy poo touching them... wanting to kiss sly under the mistletoe and what sueing so and so for sexual arrestment and what not. They are just irritating. My friend was developing 100+ photo and some machine which develops digital photos... And it is sought of our fault for not telling them that we will be taking a long time because we are developing 100+ photographs from one pathetic machine. But they called us names and started bitching us when my friend and I walked away... how unintelligent, unglamarous and dumb. Fancy calling people names just because they had to wait for 30 minutes. Okay, so my friend should not have said "too bad we were here first" but they should just take it in their stride and keep quiet what. Why must call us names... as if it will help with the situation. If they don't want to wait, then they should ask us how long we are going to take or something, but noooooooooooooo... they were there making so much noise, talking at the top of their voice about those Singapore Idols. I guess those girls did not bathe for quite a few days since their precious chrisy poo touched them... cannot wash the essence of his touch away... just kidding... Anyway, the aunty at the shop came out and asked them to keep their voices down, how exciting... They are lucky that I am not in a bitchy mood, if not... hmmmz... no one can tell what i will do... (actually nothing much larz... just talk back lorz...) but... yea... how irritating...


Hmmmz... Christmas is coming, which means school will reopen soon... Oh man... dreading for that day to come. As you can see, my English standard is deproving like crazy. I wonder why... hmmmmz... Yea, My mum's birthday is tomorrow. Which reminds me, I havent got her a present yet... haha... oops =x. Maybe I will sneak out tomorrow and buy her something. A cake maybe... Sigh... A levels coming in 11 months time... stressed...

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

What a day!

Wow! What a fun day I had yesterday!

MJChoir went to record our school song yesterday at a big recording studio located at a very ulu and secluded area. It's quite an enjoyable experience, being able to put on that headphone and sing in that fish tank like room. It was really cool. The recording took quite long because we tried singing together as a whole choir first, then started to record section by section. Anyway, I was shivering throughout the recording process because it was raining outside and the air con was like making the whole place sooooooooooooo cold.

Surprisingly, Montfort had their End of year bash cum Sec 4 farewell party yesterday. Hmmmz... I am quite happy to be able to see my sec 4 juniors after their long break from their Os. I was helping out at the kitchen anyway... My first time cutting up a watermelon and a honeydew. Messy yet fun. I heard many things about their Amusing race in the morning. A childish act and the lack of foresight i would say. I am so angry to hear that the committee is not very united after all. Two station masters. Both hated each other. One of them is not familiar in getting himself around Singapore. Because the other was being made fun of having to be station master with this bloke who doesn't know how to go Orchard road even, he left him behind, making this poor bloke having to find his way around. THAT IS SO CHILDISH! If something happens to this guy, the teachers will get into deep trouble. Why can't he even think of the consequences of such an act? He is already secondary 3 moving on to secondary 4 and here he is, trying to get himself into trouble, trying to stop people from poking fun at him by getting rid of this guy who doesn't even know how to leave hougang by a train. What can I say? Stubborness! I've shouted and scolded this group of people for for God knows how many times and here they are continuing with all this stupid things. Yes, I know that the guy (By the way the S____ C_____ of the choir) is not a likeable person in nature and all but at least they have to work together for God's sake! Without a united committee, how can the next batch of juniors taking up posts learn from them? I really wonder. There will be major changes to the choir and without a strong committee to assist the teachers, how can the choir still stand together and strive? Sigh... What can I do to help them if they don't help themselves? Oh whatever... I'll let God decide on the fate of the choir... praying hard everyday...

Monday, November 29, 2004

I wonder... hmmmz...

These few days, I have been thinking back about the past, the times I had in my secondary school lifel. I guess those memories will never fade away as I move on in life. Today is the day when my choir committee received sad news 2 years back. I guess it was very sad and emotional to learn that Mr Yong is leaving us then. sigh... Whatever it is, it is now part of the past and there is nothing we can do about it.

I had my choir meeting in school today. It was definitely fun... Had never laughed so much for the past months. Anyway, I have motivated myself to start doing my holiday assignment because I want to enjoy my Christmas... Haha... So yea, it's gonna be fun tomorrow. MJ choir will be having our "choral clinic" (a cover-up name) and it will definitely be fun. I hope... hmmmmzz....

Sunday, November 28, 2004

Just another day

Heyz heyz!

Wow... I've been extremely lazy for the past few days. Eat, sleep, read, watch TV. My holiday assignments are still nicely placed in my file, waiting for me to touch them and finish them. Sigh... I am just so lazy to start doing my homework.

Have been re-reading Harry Potter lately. It is just so exciting even though I have read it before.

Happy Fish (Kuai Le Yu).

For those who watch Xi Ling Men 2 (that 7pm show on Channel 8), you might understand what I am referring to. Hmmmmz... I find the situation the Montfort Chorale is facing, similar to Kuai Le Yu (The restaurant which sells the very famous fish and chips in the show).

Before da ma died, the restaurant is still prospering, doing quite well in fact. This is so similar to my batch of seniors whom I truly respect. Although we were only a 20 strong choir when i was in sec 1, the choir was actually doing very well. At that time, Mrs Paula Lee(The most feared conductress) was the choir mistress and my seniors knows how to handle her screamings and sarcasm quite well. So our relationship with our conductress then, was good too! We also had bonding sessions everytime after choir practice and we really had a choir room which we can truly own it. I guess, a good relationship between conductor and choir and a choir with its members bonded together like a family is important helping a choir to do well in whatever they want to do. And that's why, i guess at that time, we were doing quite well. I was one out of the 4 miserable new sec 1 members then.

When I was in Sec 2, my seniors left. Those sec 3s who were in choir quit because they did not like Mrs Lee. So, its left with the four sec 2 members and big bunch of sec 1 members who were conscripted into choir. This phase is similar to that when Jiaxi (That b***** daughter of da ma) took over the restaurant for the first time after Da Ma's death. The choir was extremely disorientated. We can't harmonise properly and we ended up singing songs with one part. Our first SYF took place that year and we achieved a COP. It was so expected. Most of the people (maybe everyone) dislike Mrs Lee because she is always screaming and never admits that she is wrong. But i guess she is a nice lady outside choir time. Knowing that the sec 1 members did not like choir very much, attendance was bad. I shan't elaborate... it was a total disaster.

Near the end of 2001, my sec 2 year, Mr Yong entered the choir. With him taking over the choir, we see light and a bright future a head. This third phase is similar to that when Yaxi and Meili (daughter-in-laws of the Luo family) helped out and take charge in the restaurant. The choir learnt new stuff and started from scratch. I was extremely happy and was always looking forward to choir practices. It's like the only thing that can make me feel happy even though i am suffering from a bad day. I totally enjoyed myself through choir practice and Mr Yong became not just our conductor, but also, our friend. He was very friendly, kind and is always smiling. He hardly scolds us (Okay... maybe once because we made him extremely angry. But that's not the point). Also, he has many plans for the choir and I can see his passion to teach us. The relationship between choir and conductor was there... a good friendship. At that time, the committee had tried their best to create a bond between each choir member. We would always have a sing along session in the bus as we were on our way home. Everyone would just sing along and harmonise together on the bus. The teachers were happy. The members were happy. The committee were happy. And indeed, we did show improvements in our standard. However, at the end of that year, Mr Ng came in and took over.

This marks the fourth phase... Jiaxi with support from Gao Zhi An (That disgusting psycho who goes around abusing women) took over the restaurant again. I am not saying that Mr Ng is not good in anyway. No! Mr Ng is indeed a man with knowlege and he knows what he is doing and all. But when he took over, I guess the choir did not accept him fully... and until now... the present... the choir seems to be in a pathetic state... What was once a 40 strong choir has been reduced to a 20 ++ strong choir (Supposedly to be 35, however, some souls choose to absent themselves for God knows what reasons). They are now strugglins with the Set piece and at the rate that they are going... I don't know. Sigh...

This leaves me to a sad conclusion that... If an organisation is not united, if they are not willing to accept changes and hope for the better... then, don't expect any good outcome at the end of it. Anyway, I guess I am thinking alot. But, such things just dawn on me when i am just staring blankly into space. Time flies. Things change. We can't live in a world of yesterday to expect great things in future. Sigh... Although i love and enjoyed myself in Meridian, I still wish I could go back to the past, where all my happy memories resides...

Friday, November 19, 2004

Tiring Day

Hello people!

Wow, at last, lessons for the second semester had ended! Phewy! Today's chemistry was quite enriching but the lecturer drag on for like another 40 minutes, so its like total suffering. But its no doubt helpful for the test next year.

Went to Montfort this morning. Their attendance is totally pathetic because only 17 out of 35 members came for practice. I wonder how they are going to get at least a bronze for SYF if their attitude continues to be the "YAY! COP FOR NEXT YEAR!" or "AIYA CONFIRM COP ONE LAR!". How irritating. I wish I could just stand in front of them to scold them. hmmmz... At least the sec 3s are not a let down in terms of attitude. But the lower sec should be given a wake up call! They don't even know what SYF means to the school, teachers, seniors and most of all, to them. They should at least do themselves proud by achieving something from their CCA on not just while their time away and achieve nothing. I believe a CCA is not just a compulsory activity that you must take part in, but it is a chance to let you explore your talents and learn something out of it. SYF... I always hoped that the Montfort Chorale could get at least a bronze last year. I know we are capable of doing it. But things don't always happen the way you want it to happen. At least I have taken that in my stride and I am trying my best to go back for their practices to help them achieve something next year. Sign... I guess its another COP year if they continue with this attitude.

Sunset.

I love that song. Its beautiful. The lyrics are rather relaxing and the JC version is quite easy to sing. Mr Kwei has told us how to attack the piece and how to sing out the essence of the song. Although the secondary school version is similar to that of the JC version, I guess Montfort will have a hard time conquering that piece because of the beats and the way they potray songs. Haha... Not that I want to say them or anything, but shouting songs suits them the best. They seem to be unable to do slow, relaxing songs. But if there's a will, there's a way. I will make sure they can get it right. Since its the holidays, I will have time to go back for their practices! and of course I need to study. The warning from my lecturers are scaring me. A levels next year. Time will just pass so quickly and its gonna be tough.

Anyway, saya kita balik ruma... haha... ignore me... trying to be lame... Shall blog the next time... goodie bye

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

I need a rest... I need a break... Beginning to feel better... but mind is killing me... Father, help me!

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

Another day...

Alright... another day of school. How tiring and energy consuming. The biology department rocks!! haha... Our lecturers always let us off so early and they are always there for us when we needed them. Yea!! Just hope that this week will end soon because I am beginning to get sick of having double lecture periods everyday. It can kill both the mind and the soul alright.

Went to Compass Point to get Jing Yi's birthday present. Wow, I bought him a pair of slippers from OP which costs 23 bucks... hmmmz... Its nice! I like it very much... but Mum might nag larz... haha... Its ok... Preparing to make Christmas presents this year. Another hand made thing which is cheap and i guess meaningful? haha... I make them with love, patience and yada yada yada... what crap... But its gonna be nice... I hope...

Life is full of ups and downs. A bad childhood can cause a great impact in how you are gonna lead your life in future. A nasty situation can cause a great impact in you and might result in making your life miserable as days past. I wonder, how can a problem like this be solved? Seeing a psychiatrist? Taking medicine? Facing these fears alone? I don't know... Sometimes, things might get so out of hand that you might get hurt both physically and mentally. I, for that matter, will break down totally and go mad if I don't seek help. God has spoken to me. I know what to do. But, its difficult with a mind that is very unexpected. One moment you may be alright, but the next moment, you may just feel down, moody etc. I know what I want to do in future. I guess I am living in fear each day but it's no point. I am the cause of such misery and I should put an end to it. But how am I going to do it if I don't have a strong mind? God is the answer to this question.

Haha... anyway, got our SYF set piece. It is great! Hope Montfort can do it well... Alright, shall end hear... mother nagging...


Sunday, November 07, 2004

Blog awoken from deep sleep... hahazz

Hello! hello hello hello (slowly echoing away)

Haha... i know it has been a loooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnngggggggggg time since i blogged so here i am, blogging a new entry. Wonders if anyone will ever bother visiting my blog again but here it goes.

Time has passed so quickly. Through this 9 months of my life ever since I left my blog, many things had happened to me - good, bad, whatever.

I entered into a whole new world after being extinct from the education system for 3 months. Being able to experience the life of a Junior College student is incredible. Life has took a drastic change for me. I began to think about things from a different perspective and i began to learn new stuff from my choir. The lecture tutorial system was quite difficult to adapt at first, but it takes time for me to get used to this new system and learn what I want to learn.

JC education is definitely a great big step away from what we learn in secondary school. I am taking Biology, Chemistry and Maths C as my subject here in MJC. Biology used to be: respiration involves mitochondria which produces ATP as a source of energy. Now... Biology is: Respiration involves 3 processes, glycolysis, kreb's cycle and oxidative phosphorylation coupled with the electron transport chain. Chemistry used to be: a covalent bond is formed when 2 or more atoms of non-metallic elements share their electrons to form a stable octet configuration. Now chemsitry is: a covalent bond is the strong electrostatic forces of attraction between the shared electron pair and the postively charged nuclei of each constituent atom. Fun yet challenging. Being able to score a CCD for my promotional exams really makes me feel happy. But there is more to come.

Through this year, I had the chance to perform in concerts which I do not get to do so in the past. First it was La Risonanza, MJC choir own solo concert at VCH. It was successful but due to a small mistake, my choral conductor was mad in the end. Secondly, Montpressivo, Montfort Chorale's first solo concert at CHIJMES hall. It was also successful and I was their guest conductor. I am so proud of them, being through all the hard times and practices and being able to produce such results on their concert day. Mr Yong came too! but he came secretly because he did not want the choir to crowd around him (as usual) and make Mr Ng feel embarass. Now, I am promoted to the bass SL for MJ choir. I feel quite awkward at first, but nevertheless, we shall see the outcome...