Praise the Lord!! I've finally managed to clear most of my work. Stressful I am but I'm feeling better now. Not too stressed up as before... whahaha...

Last week, I baked 2 wonderful cheesecakes!!! Rich New York Cheesecake and Oreo Cheesecake (Or Temptation Oreo as the cookbook calls it...) The cakes turned out to be not bad at all! I was so addicted to the Oreo cheesecake that I can't stop eating it. It took quite a lot of time to bake it... So luckily it turned out well... If not... I might as well hang myself. The biscuit base to my New York Cheesecake was quite blend though, due to my stupidity. It so happened that the biscuit base was soaked in water throughout the baking process as water has seeped into the springform pan. How did water got in you may ask? Its because I immersed the springform pan into the tray of water instead of putting the pan on the tray first, then pour the water into the tray. You understand? If you don't, its okay. wahhahahaha... Anyway, here is a picture of my New York Cheesecake...

I did not take a picture of my oreo cheesecake because I caused it to have a huge crack when I was about to remove it from the pan!!! (Apparently, i forget to run a knife along the side of the cake to ensure that the cake did not cling onto the sides of the pan............... again... Its due to my stupidity!) Therefore, its not too nice to show... wahahhaha... But here's a picture of the chocolate cheese tart that I made quite a few weeks back...

I've been searching for this cheese tart recipe for sooooo long and finally, I've found it in a cookbook which my mother's customer gave me. Woohoo!! And I vow to bake almost every cheesecake in the cookbook because they all looooked so yummy and nice. haha...

Alright, I woke up this morning with a great sense of urgency in me today. I realised I have not prepared much for my coming Perth trip. The only thing I did was the booking of air tickets!! I have not made my new passport, I have not find out more about the Pert and worse of all, I have not settle my accomodation!!!!! SCREAM!!!! And why the sudden sense of urgency? Its because I dreamt that I was panicking when I was all alone over at a beautiful country which does not look anything like Perth (Looks like an asian country...).. Yea... How cool is that -.- And I also realised that my Final Theory Test is like 1 month away and I have not started studying for it. I haven't even got the book!! diao diao... I'm so dead man...

Amidst all those panicking, I still feel happy! The day with the big O is coming and my last batch of recruits have just enlisted! Woohoo!!! Each day seems to pass so quickly... Woohoo! I just can't wait =)

Before I end, I want to say Nodame Cantabile rocks!! Its a Japanese Drama which involves a lot of orchestra and piano music... wahaha... I loveeeeeee...!

Yay! I've passed my basic theory test! I'm one step closer in getting my driving license. I had a weird dream this morning before the test. I dreamt that I drove my dad's car to ang mo kio to take my basic theory. And I ended up in some HDB block where I tried to park the car. But somehow, I over shot the barrier and I reverse all the way into the void deck of the block...... And right in front of me was a police car, so I drove out and tried to run away because I am driving without a license....................... I'm thinking too much.. I know... I'm so crazy -_-"

Oh well... I think there is a donut craze in Singapore now. More and more shops selling donuts. And somehow, I've joined in the craze! Going around hunting for good donuts. My mum bought 6 donuts from Missy Donuts (8 days rated 4 simpsons =)) Can't wait to try them!! I've been buying donuts from Yummy donuts at Pasir Ris White Sands. The donuts are alright. Not too bad... But not fantastic either... I'm waiting to try Donut Factory's donuts. But i'm too lazy to join in the super duper long line... hehe... Oh well... We shall see...

I'm still crippled by the 2 saturdays of guard duty. Even though I slept quite a lot this morning, I'm still feeling super tired now... why? why? Tsk...

Yesterday's service was fantastic! Pastor Rony is so so so funny!

And so I'm 3 months away to the long awaited day. Seriously can't wait for it to come. Please come soon? Please?

I'm like being so so random now... Eyes closing... closing... closing...

"We are a miracle nation because we have grown so much over 42 years. We also have miracle service every Saturday.... "

I'm so tired... Guard duty drains me of my energy... Boo...

After reading through my previous posts, I realised my english sucks. There are so many spelling errors... movie became money and reveal became review... pooi! double boo...

WITS presentation at Div HQ this thurs... Guard duty this coming Saturday again... Just kill me ok?!

I need rest!! Revive me please... Enervate!

Finally I'm back! I've been cut off from the world of internet for like 3 weeks. My internet was only restored last tuesday. Wahaha... and I have been busy/lazy to type something here but now, I'm doing it in camp!!.

Many many things happened since 25 June. Andre has flew off to Aussieland where it is freezing cold there. I missed my synergy concert because I did not book in time and I was rather lazy to go out and I WILL not forget to book my In Song concert tickets! That concert is a must watch! I've completed my personal statement (like finally) and my counsellor has vet through it. Still need to make some corrections (Apparently I am good at creating sentences which are very super long and dreary... haha..) to it before its presentable.

Watched Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix with my cousins. The show would be super cool if I didn't read the book. But too bad, I've read it and naturally I will have certain expectations for that movie. Yes, I will have to accept the fact that the movie cannot follow the book from cover to cover. But I guess the director should not make major changes to the story. Then again, I understand that the changes are necessary because the cost in producing a money has to be taken into account. More characters = more money spent. Anyway, storyline aside, the special effects and what have you are definitely cool!! Especially the duel at the Ministry of Magic! Its so so exciting! Though I wish the duel between Voldemort and Dumbledore could be more exciting than just point point, stop, stare and wait for things to happen. It would be good if the golden statues could come alive, like in the book, and protect harry and stuff. woohoo! Overall, not too bad lar...

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows came out finally!!!! This is the best Harry Potter book I've ever read because there is non-stop action in the book! Very very exciting! The story flows very well from one chapter to another. This book definitely answers a lot of questions which might arise in previous books and the ending is simply touching. I almost cried through some parts of the book because certain people died and Harry did something very brave, something which takes someone great courage to do. Shan't review details just in case people have not finish reading the book. But yea... truly enjoyed the book!!! LOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVEEE IT!

Met the wanderers last saturday. IT was sort of a small gathering as 4 out of 7 made it. So happy to be able to see them again. Lunch at the taiwan restaurant opposite my house was fantastic! Its the company... haha... And I met my cousins for karaoke session at Chevrons on Sunday. Its just sing sing sing and eat eat eat at IMM... nothing much but enjoyable =)

Oh well, my Aussie trip has been brought forward from 10 december to 28 november!! I'll be returning on 5 december with Andre. The dates are confirmed and I will be booking air tickets when I go home!! so exciting!!! Can't wait Can't wait =)

Alright... I shall go study for my basic theory now... Hopefully I pass... woohoo!!

And so I bought a skipping rope yesterday. I have no idea why I had the sudden urge to skip but yea, I bought it and I skipped. It must be that disney channel movie, Jump In, which cause me to like skipping suddenly...But seriously, I sucked at it. Haha... I wonder... =X

Today's counselling session is definitely productive. All thanks to my wonderful counsellor =) He gave me some pointers on how I should edit my messy personal statement. Frankly speaking, it was a rather last minute thing because I only came up with my personal statement this morning in office. And I was even editing it on my way to CMPB. How pathetic... But yea, its definitely good to have someone to show me which way to go and how I should phrase my sentences. My counsellor is very learned. He is so deep and his points are so logical and yet profound. Rocks man! Oh yea, I express my concern of fear in flying alone to other countries and he actually gave me some useful pointers on how to curb that fear. Its so true that fear stops us from doing what we want to do. Its like disregarding a good book by looking at its cover instead of its content. If we don't go ahead and do what we want to do and explore, we will regret it one day.

And so, I have begin planning my end of year trip to Aussieland to visit Andre. I've gathered ticket prices to perth for several airlines and most probably I will be taking Qantas... SO CHEAP! (cheaper than SIA definitely...) Also, I will be gathering information about perth, just in case I get lost or something. Tentative date of departure would be the Monday after my ORD, 10 December. woots!

Finally, I have decided to book for the Basic Theory Test. I will be taking mine on 13 August at Ang Mo Kio. ooooh... Can't wait. My mind has been pondering about getting a driver's license lately... Its really convenient to have one I guess... wahaha...

My cousins have gotten their posting quite a while back and one went to SISPEC while the other went to OCS. How interesting... I'm sure the both of them can pull through the training! woohoo!!

Oh well... as for now... its back to work for me... ORD... I'm coming!

PS: Song choon... you can do it! Time will pass very quickly and before you know it, I will have to call you sergeant! As for kian heng... lucky you... so slack... wahaha... poke poke poke... poke yourself... wahahaha...

Dreams are just so fascinating.

Yesterday I had many weird dreams during guard duty. I dreamt that my teeth were falling out one by one and my whole mouth was bleeding (it felt so real...). Then I dreamt that I was outside a church and I saw stevenson... Then someone was praying in tongues before I woke up... This morning when I was sleeping at home, I dreamt that the whole parade square at BMTC was flooded with water and I am suppose to take part in some water sport but I told my team mates (can't remember who...) that I can't swim... Then suddenly, Tay Ping Hui materialise behind me and I can't remember what he did... I guess he was encouraging me or something... I had a lot of interesting dreams during this 2 days but I have forgotten most of them by now...

Guard duty sucked as usual... But time passed by so so quickly. I don't even know if its a good thing or a bad thing. Good that I'm one day closer to my ORD but bad because I don't seem to be able to catch my breath. Hours seemed like minutes to me all of a sudden...

I will be staying at my cousins' house for the next three days because of the Finance Appointment Holder's Seminar... Yew Tee here I come! Can't wait to see how much the finance structure has change after a year...

More concerts coming up! Its Synergy and In Song 07 for me... Can't wait...

The world continues spinning and Life still goes on...

I'm tired. So tired. How I wish I can just take a break from life and rest. Just rest.

I baked muffins today. Just had a strong urge to bake vanilla chocolate chip muffins. Went to Ikea and Giant at Tampines with Choon today too. Tried to find my giant tin of panda biscuits, but there's only the giant box. Saw boxes of nougats too... But they are so expensive... I guess I've lost my addiction for them.

There're so many things which I felt compelled to do all of a sudden. I guess the next big thing will be taking my Basic Theory? Wahaha.. Like finally...

I've been sick since Tuesday. My fever always threaten to come back. Even now, I still feel feverish and all, but definitely better compared to the past few days. Argh... The past few days have been quite miserable all because of the stupid fever! Oh well... Have to thank Andre for taking care of me in camp while I was sick. Really thankful for his care and concern.

La Risonanza IV just flew by. Alumni's performance was not that bad (one of the better ones compared to previous rehearsals.......). The choir did well. The other 2 guest choirs were quite impressive. I could have enjoyed the concert and Alumni's performance more if not for that fever which choose to come a few hours before the concert. Praise God for allowing the fever to subside in time! =) woohoo!

I guess I have evolved into a couch potato. I've been rotting on my sofa since yesterday morning (except for nap time at night). rest rest rest is all i need!

Happy Mother's Day to all Mother's out there!

My parents and I had dinner at Serangoon Gardens Market today, together with my aunts and my cousin. I almost puke after dinner, not because the food sucked but because I was so so full that if you push my stomach, I will vomit everything back out for you.

Anyway, we drove pass my grandma's house on the way there. All of us did the same thing while we were waiting for traffic to move. My parents and I turned to the direction of my grandmother's house and looked at it for quite some time. We did not exchange words after that. Everyone was quiet and deep in thought. I guess I missed that place a lot. It was a place where my cousins would gather every saturday, to play. It was the place where I sort of grew up. Yep, a place filled with memories indeed. Sigh... I wish I could go back there again, just for old times sake. But the place is empty now and I think my uncles and aunts have decided to sell it away. Sigh... Oh well... Move on, Jeremy, Move on...

The SYF Central Judging for Choirs took place on Tuesday. MJChoir got GOLD!!!!! I was like so so happy! Can't stand it... The alumni was like so stress while waiting for the results because we thought MJChoir had a chance of getting silver. Wahaha... but Gold!!! Anyway, this year's competitors are definitely strong. Many many choirs seem to have improved alot and some even sound like they have a chance of getting a Gold. But, the judges this year are very strict too. Hence, the number of Gold with Honors dropped to 3 this year and the number of Gold dropped to 4. I was very surprised that ACJC and AJC missed their Gold with Honors and TPJC and RJC missed their Gold. Really very shocking. But then again, its the Judges' decision, so I shan't comment much.

La Risonanza IV is coming! So exciting. Hopefully the Alumni will sound good on stage since there are 2 other guest choirs and there's the MJ chamber choir too... haha... Can't wait can't wait...

Iwill never be bored with my family because there is just too much drama going on here.

Today, my whole family (mother's side, minus a few peeps) won 4D. Where did they get the number from, you may ask? Its actually from the barbeque pit which we used yesterday at our family gathering. The pit number was PIT 1. So where did the other 3 numbers come from? This is how they get their number...

P looks like a 9
I looks like a 1
T looks like a 7

Therefore, the lucky number is................... 9171! haha... They chose to use the BBQ pit's number because there was a huge fire at the pit yesterday and them being chinese felt that it was very auspicious (hen wang!). So they went to buy the number... haha... And so my mothers's sisters flock over to my place (minus sister number 3) for an animated discussion. Its really easy to find out if one of my family members have won lottery because the warning signal will sound. It will go off at about 7pm every sunday (saturdays too if we don't meet up...) and that will follow with my mother's scream. That very warning signal would be my house phone's "ring ring..."

How interesting...

Murphy sort of like me today.

I tripped and almost fell down on an over head bridge. I was almost knocked down by a bicycle while walking. I stepped on a dead Cockroach. My friend (someone whom I have not met for a long time...) had high fever today and so we were not able to meet up. While I was walking towards the 89 bus stop, I saw the bus left without me.

Looking at things from the brighter side,

at least I didn't fall down flat and injure myself (or even fall onto the expressway... choy choy choy). At least there was someone behind me who called me to watch out, if not I would have been severely injured. At least I didn't kill a living creature (okay... this is cheesy...). At least my friend is not dead, meaning that we can still meet up some other time. At least the next 89 didn't take so long to arrive.

Oh well... Today's choir practice is quite fruitful I guess. We completed Exultate Justi and managed to sing through all 3 songs. Although the songs are still not perfect, at least we see new faces coming for pract. 3 more weeks to Concert! 1 more week to SYF for JC choirs! So exciting. This would also mean that more weekends will be burnt due to intensive practices. I'm still able to handle it so far even though I'm on the verge of cracking already (too tired... boo...) But yea, its kind of healthy as it keeps my mind moving. yippee!

My aunt gave me 2 cook books today! Both books contain baking techniques for desserts and cakes and what nots and apparently, they belonged to my uncle. I don't remember him as a cook when he was still around... Haha... maybe I was too young to remember about such things or maybe it was just a gift to him. But those 2 books are very very interesting! Am going to read it before baking Andre's Super Fudge Chocolate Delight (HA! I remember ok! haha...) next week. Can't wait can't wait...

I am so extremely tired now.
I don't even have the energy to chew my food. Pooi pooi!
I feel like fainting when I stand.
I don't have the mood to do anything.
Even baking today seems like a chore to me.
I am so extremely tired now.

Being unable to sleep for the past few nights sucks. I have no idea why too! Must be those stinking mosquito bites!! Da bian... This combined with guard duty completely drained me of all energy. How sucky!

Oh well... May things be better as each day passes...

And so Montfort Chorale got Bronze for their SYF... Nvm... Its okay... at least they didn't deprove. Yea, definitely am sad that they weren't able to get that silver because they did really well for their Set piece! But, hey, things happen on stage and as a chorister, I should understand that. Oh well, I am glad that they got a Bronze at least and that the hard work they put in did not go to waste. Well done MC! =)

Time flies. Yesterday, I was helping Jan with his SYF set piece for JCs. How much he has changed. When he was in Montfort, he would find ways and excuses to skip choir practice and now when he is in Meridian Choir, he is so enthusiastic about it and even asked me to help him with the songs. How much he has changed. The both of us were looking at some old photos of Montfort Chorale yesterday and boy did I miss those days so much. The fun we had and the many change of conductors we had. It is definitely a very interesting experience.

I miss those days in Log branch where every day is a day of fun and laughter. Where we help each other whenever possible and stay in together. Most of the people in Log branch has left. Yea... I've got to move on. Just can't help but think of those days when School 2 Log Branch existed.

I miss my Meridian Choir days where we were given so much pressure. I still remember the time where we were practising for SYF, when Mr Kwei goes into his SYF mood. When AJC, VJC, TPJC and us come and sing to one another. Where we had to go through so so much to perfect the unperfect-able Shoga. Where we sang the set piece the best (out of the 4 choirs) but screw it up on SYF day itself.

I miss my Meridian Day. I miss Mrs Chong's cold maths jokes, Mr Lee's GP consultation and humour, Mr Sung's patient teaching, us making Mrs Quek frustrated, Ms Soh's care for us. I miss Mr Eric Chua's unending patience for training me in my pull up and his never ending encouragement for me during PE. I miss the fun times I had in class with the wanderers in J2 and with Magan, weilin, weeling and josephine in J1.

I have so so many fun times in my life which I will never forget. And I am so thankful that I am able to have so many happy memories which I can keep till the end. Yea, praise God!

Oh well, such is life, life is as such... Let's wait and see what else is installed for me in future...

By the way, please support MJChoir (if there is anyone out there reading this...)! Come for La Risonanza IV!!! Come come come! =)

Today, my family gathered at Carribean for my grandma's birthday celebration. The food was great but I guess I was too tired to even enjoy myself. Futhermore, most of my cousins are not around, so its rather quiet. Oh well... I'm really too tired to type anything so I will just post photos. Oh yea! Today's service concludes the 10 ways to maintain our healing. Its really very enlightening for me. Shall talk about it the next time I blog. Here are the photos...

The final final product with strawberries from China!





The Swimming Pool. My whole family was watching the swimming pool for a good half an hour at the Clubhouse because they were very very fascinated with an ang moh throwing their kids into the swimming pool, literally. haha...

The future bridge to dunno where...

The nice fountain...

And finally... the giant ferris wheel... I just can't help but take a photo of it... again... haha...

I went back to Montfort today to listen to Montfort Chorale before they sing for SYF this coming Wednesday. And to be honest, I am really very very surprised when I heard them. They have improved tremendously! Its like they went through some crash course in choral singing. Their set piece was very nicely done (Not really gold standard but definitely better than the standard they produce for Sunset). They sang in one voice, they moved together as a choir, there was actually interpretation to the song, every note was correct and most importantly, they actually show some choral technique! Never in my life have I heard them sing so well ever since Mr Yong left. Seriously, I am really very impressed and proud of them man! Woots! Yagi Bushi was a stunner! The song was definitely of a high standard (comparable to their jap proverbs i guess) given that they have never sung such songs in TTBB before. And they are able to deliver it reasonably well. I admit that the song wasn't perfect as there were messy entries and sometimes they will just slow down and there are definitely some frivolous notes sung during the song but then, its really a great achievement for them. They suck when I heard them in Jan. 3 - 4 months later, they are able to produce a standard like that, its really very good. As for Ave Maria, I find that they can do more for the interpretation because they sounded so chor lor when they sing this soft mellow piece. But oh well... they managed to pull through a difficult sacred piece like that, I have nothing to say (although they went sharp in the end =X) haha... Hopefullly they will be able to get a Silver for SYF and prove to the school that they can be better than the band and most importantly, they have substance! Kudos to Mr Wilson Goh for helping them improve so much!!!! =)



Anyway, after choir pract, Ernest and I made our way to Cafe Cartel for dinner then he came over to my place to see me bake a cake for my grandma's birthday. Ernest Lim Wee Kiat actually helped me to decorate the cake. He sucked at it. So do I... haha... The both of us were practically laughing our heads off while decorating the cake, coming up with funny ideas of how we should decorate the cake and all. Its really very happening. I will have to thank Ernest for helping me out today! Thank you Ernest! Anyway, this is the end result...



Cocoa pops wordings were done by yours truly! Thank you thank you! Haha... oh well... I will post more pics tomorrow. I am so so so tired now. Out since 8.30am for MJChoir Alumni pract, then rushed down to Montfort for MC pract which ended at about 5pm. Didn't have time to eat and drink man... Okay... Shall go and sleep now... Goodie night


Quote of the day: Let's see the cake of the fate...
No prizes for guessing who said that... ha!

Its home alone again for me. My parents have flown off to China for their holiday early this morning while my brother will not be back from work till like midnight (not that he is working OT or anything but he will most probably be out with his friends...) So its just me, myself and I, alone at home. And I ended up watching Night at the Museum again at home. Funny movie that is... My dumb dumb wants to speak... haha...

I'll be on off tomorrow because I'll be going back to Montfort tomorrow to see how the choir is doing. Their SYF is coming up soon and I so hope that they will do well for it this year. Hopefully they can maintain their bronze or even move up to a silver (so that the band won't laugh at them anymore since they got a bronze this year... ha!) I will have to deliver old choir uniforms to them too, to help the needy students.

Yesterday's choir pract at Meridian was nonetheless, fruitful. Despite most of the uni gals having exams and stuff, quite a number turned up for practice. woohoo! And its only when we enter our wonderfully horrible choir room (I so miss that place...) that we found out how horrible we sound. And lucky for us, Mr Yong came before our Alumni Practice end, so we asked him to work on the 3 pieces with us. And so, we've decided to start having intensive practices from next Saturday onwards, to improve on our 3 songs. diao diao...

After so many months, I finally went out with my cousins yesterday. We went to watch Meet the Robinsons and boy were we so inspired by that movie. Keep Moving Forward! yea... and Hooray! I've made a mistake which means I will get to learn! That kind of thing... Its certainly much more interesting than Mr Bean's Holiday... Oh well... After the movie, we went to New York New York to taste the most spicy chicken drumlets of all time. One piece of the drumlet caused me to down one whole glass of water. One small bite of the drumlet caused Amanda to down half a glass of water. How small is the bite you may ask.... This small....

And we had to de-skin the chicken to finish them. How sad can we get...

Before

After

We had a great time yesterday definitely. Hopefully we can go to the Austrailia trip end of this year after their exams. Woohoo!!

I banged my head against the door the other day. It gave me a pimple and a swelling. Boo... And today, I was almost late for service because complacent me thought I could make it in time by leaving home 45 mins earlier... But the bus never came... And when I was about to walk to Compass point to take a cab, bus 83 drove to the bus stop happily.. And when I reach Compass point taxi stand, there was a super long queue and no cabs were in sight. Then I began walking upwards towards the 89 bus stop to try to get a cab. But there were no cabs in sight too! da bian... and It was like 11am (15 minutes to service) and I was like so panicky... don't even know whether I can make it in time. So in the end I took bus 27 to the busstop before the expressway and I got a cab there. In the end, I reached church just in time... woot! Praise the Lord!!

Alright... Let's all Keep Moving Forward! Put the pass behind us! Let go of all unhappy worries and troubles and delight in the presence of God!

That was random... oh well... Let's see what God has installed for me this coming week..

Happy Easter everyone!! I spent my Easter Sunday baking away at the Kitchen today. I have been waiting for today to come because I wanted to try out that White Chocolate Raspberry Cheesecake recipe which I've found at all recipes. It didn't really turn out the way I wanted it to be because my mother bought duo chocolate chips (white and milk chocolate together) instead of white chocolate and my raspberry sauce didn't turn out as thick as it should be. Hmmm... So the cake became brown in colour (instead of white) and I don't think the thickness of the sauce affected the cake much. Oh well... I didn't take a photo of it because I am too lazy to do so.


I'm just so so so tired because I've been sleeping late and waking up early every day for Good Friday Service, Choir practice and Sunday Service. I really don't mind waking up early for these stuff but the lack of sleep is causing me to be a little heavy in the head. And so, I messed up the kitchen in the end because I can't think clearly and I felt really disorientated and disorganised. So pooi pooi...


I've finally found my Mascarpone Cheese at Cold Storage when I was out with Choon on Friday!! So I went home immediately to make my long awaited tiramisu which didn't turn out very well too... (How irritating...) I don't know if it should be creamy or cake like. But it turned out creamy in the end. Maybe I should not have used my electric mixer to mix my mascarpone cheese and egg yolk mixture because it turned out that the cheese became watery!!! I was so shocked that I began panicking (the uncertainty of whether I'm doing it correctly kills me... pooi pooi!). I wanted to throw the whole thing away but I heard a distant voice from afar (Sharon's one actually) reminding me of the countless children who are dying from hunger in Africa everyday. So, I fought the the feeling of imperfection and continued on with the journey of producing my first ever tiramisu. And so, that's how my creamy/ failed (I think...) tiramisu came about (no photos... Its too disgusting to be posted online...). It turned out that my mum's friend said that the tiramisu tasted nice... I've tried it. It was okay... But I don't find it perfect yet...


Somehow, the only thing I've baked over the pass few days which turned out well was my Apple crisp. The look is okay but it was too bloody sweet!!! pooi pooi pooi! But its really very nice (not praising myself but the recipe) if I cut down the sugar content by half. I felt diabetic after taking one small bite of that apple crisp. Comparable to the constipation and diabetes inducing brownie I produced last week... Woot!! Here's one photo of how it looked like in the oven...





Oh well, I enjoy baking because it sort of relaxes my mind. Sometimes it helps me think through stuff and sort out my thoughts. Yea, its one way to calm the irritating beast within me. People ask me to sell what I bake but I feel awkward doing it for money. I sort of want to do things as and when I like to do with no worries whether I will poison the next guy who takes a bit out of my stuff. Also, its really laborious to bake things in big quantities. I just one to bake it, savour it and clean up. haha... Its just my way of relaxing I guess...

Alright, Choir practice have been very very productive so far! We've chose our 3 songs and finished learning 2 of them. So exciting! People who wants to support MJChoir and its alumni (3 songs only...), Please please buy tickets!! Details are as follows:

Meridian Junior College Choir presents:
La Risonanza IV
Date: 24 May 07
Venue: Victoria Concert Hall
Time: 7.30pm
Tix price: $12


Lastly, I'm really really broke! Phewy... I've been spending a lot on movies and food for the past few days and I think I'm buying things on impulse. Like yesterday, while I was waiting for Ernest and Edwin at Vivo City, I went into Candy Empire and came out with 2 packets of biscuits (Buy one get one free... I'm no cheapo ok!) worth $7.90. Then on Friday, while I was buying ingredients with choon on Friday, I bought one packet of M&Ms, 2 packets of Marks and Spencer cookies, Oreo cookies and 1 packet of marshmellows just because I felt like buying it. Now my house if filled with biscuits and I have no idea when I can finish them... da bian... I'm so dead... I'm so dead... The money in my pocket is replaced with guilt (for not saving... damn it!)... Oh well... I guess I really have to start saving and learn how to control my expenses (I'm a finance clerk for goodness sake!) Alright... here are some photos taken yesterday with Ern and Edwin (Such cam whores are we!)

Through this cam whoring experience, I realised that my face is very small... Boo... Oh well... To end off, Ernest, the following is for you:

Seek ye first the kindom of God

And His righteousness

And all His things shall be given unto you

Hallelu Hallelujah

Recess over loh!!!

And so I had my first weekend guard duty yesterday. I'm quite blessed actually because I had a lot of resting time yesterday and there was no turn out or anything. So yea, lucky lucky me. Anyway, guard duty is definitely not fun but one thing about doing it at SFT is that you get to see aeroplanes land one after another. Not that its a very interesting sight or anything (it gets boring after a while because the planes just keep on coming...) but you get to see planes from different airlines. Some are foreign but most are common (like, duh!). That is one way to past time when you are walking about, making sure that no suspicious personnel can be found lurking around the vicinity. Oh well... One month down... another 8 more months to go...

After returning home from guard duty today, I decided to bake something to relax myself. And I'm proud to announce that I've produced the ultimate constipation causing brownie. I'm not praising my own cooking but the brownie is very chocolatey itself, and its coated with chocolate icing made from cocoa powder, butter, icing sugar and honey. Woooooooh! No doubt, it will definitely cause constipation and if you're unlucky enough, diabetes mellitus... haha... Shall see the reaction of my friends tomorrow... wooohooo

Another exciting week ahead for me! Good Friday service, MJChoir Alumni Practice, MCA lunch and my grandma's birthday at my cousins' house. Woots!

This is what I've learnt from my counsellor today...

What causes insecurities in a friendship? Its the unmet expectations that gives rise to this insecurities. Insecurities leads to paranoia which ends up in frustration. This could also lead to destruction of a friendship instead of development/maintenance of a friendship as one would tend to say hurtful and accusatory words to one's friend. Define your expectations and think about it properly. Are they demanding? Is it difficult for your friend to meet that expectation? If yes, moderate that expectation. Let go of these difficult expectations and not let it ruin your friendship just because your friend is unable to meet it.

Never ever accuse your friend for something which he is not feeling. If you are unsure, clarify and don't accuse him or her of feeling this way because you will never know how he feels unless you clarify. To build a friendship, you have to be nice about it and not be harsh because that is not how you should behave. What level do you want to bring your friendship to?

If you know that things are not like that but you cannot seem to stop thinking about the worst then "thought stopping" methods have to come in. There will definitely be happy and enjoyable moments in a friendship. Why do you decide to develop a friendship with a person if you don't like him in the first place? Therefore, distract yourself by giving one loud clap or smacking your leg to stop ruminating about the bad and use that interval of distraction to replace these negative thoughts with the positive. This may help stop you from thinking the unthinkable and maybe even paranoia. Trust your friend for he did not do anything to make you distrust him. Build this friendship and not destroy it.

........................... Chapter closed............................

Book burnt

Yesterday was quite an exciting day! The alumni went down to Siglap South CC for MJChoir practice. The Choir definitely sounded great! Beati Quorum and Yoru. 2 very beautiful songs indeed. Hopefully they will be able to get their Gold with Honors this year... Can't wait man...

Anyway, the alumni will most probably be performing for La Risonanza IV this year. Also, if all things go well, we might be joining them for their Pattaya trip this coming July!! So exciting!! Really can't wait man! I definitely need more practice since I've not been singing properly for so so long... All my choral technique seems to have disappeared. Damn... Oh well... its time to sing at home more again... wahahaha...

Met up with the 7 wanderers yesterday. Finally, after 7 months, all 7 of us gathered at Safra Tampines Sakura to have our "Reunion" dinner. The gathering was great! We laughed and ate and laughed some more. We turn ghost stories into comedies and suicide attempts to interesting debates on how the person actually die. We talked about Meridian and how different it is now since quite a number of our teachers left. Its really fun. Wee ling has her own car now and she drove us all home. How nice of her =) Her car is big and very cool!!! A honda civics with a digitalised speed-o-meter (maybe its common now... I'm a sua gu can?) and the interior of the car is very very nice! Not bad... Oh well, all 7 of us squeezed into her car after dinner, and we went to the playground at granny's house to have a chit chat. The the out of the 4 girls, siew li seems to be very stress with her course, sophie seems tied down with her readings, wee ling and wen feng seems to be quite alright with their studies at the moment. As for me and Meng yang, all we are concerned about is to ORD and start our studies. Both of us will be entering NUS FOS together!! woots! But still, unsure of what we want to do. Somehow, it makes me think how all of us will be like when time passes. What will all of us be doing in future? I know I want to be a teacher but somehow, I still feel a little uncertain of my decision. The rest are also uncertain of what they want to do... Hmmm... Whatever it is, hopefully all of us will be contented with what we want in future and one day, we might sit in a restaurant, in our working attire (or maybe not), talking/bitching about the stuff we do at work... hmmmm..... Here are some photos which we took last night... Take note of wee wee's beautiful car!!!

As for today, my family and I went to Sakura for dinner. Which Sakura? Safra Tampines... Me and my itchy mouth... Should have kept quiet when my mum was asking for suggestions on where to have our dinner. So I had a second round of Sakura today. As a tradition for all buffets, my cousins and I will compete to see who will be the last to finish eating. The first ever competition was at Pariss International (Marina Square). I came in fourth (aka last place). As for today, I came in fourth again (Da bian...). But I'm not in last place this time round because "Here comes a new challenger!". Muahahahaha... So I shall take comfort that I drop out after a 12 year old declare that he is full... Hahaha... Here is our pai hang bang for today...

In last place, we have Mr Jonathan Goh, the 12 year old....

Its not supposed to be a monkey pose... Its supposed to be just the pinkie showing to represent last place =)

In fourth place, we have... Me! The supposedly NS trained...

Note sad face... boo hoo...

In third place, we have... Sharon!! From second place to third place..

And finally, we have a tie in first place... Samuel and Shawn, the wonder twins!

So that's that for dinner. After giving up at fourth place, my back actually hurts quite alot... Hopefully I don't suffer from kidney failure or anything. Oh well, let's see what's God's plan for me =)

Lastly, I think that they should ban people from playing music through their handphone speakers on buses! Especially when its a mix of hokkien songs and chinese/english pop! The agony I went through just to go home today is unimaginable. Here I am, trying to read my book and there those people are, playing songs at full blast, ruining the quiet atmosphere of the new 72 bus model. Da bian... Oh well... will just have to bare with it won't I...

Frustration Brushtration... A lethal weapon I say...

Yes. Indeed I have not been feeling right for the past few days. I'm glad to have trashed/talked things out. I guess its all up to me to fight this evil within me. Away you evil frustration! Away!
Thanks =)

MJChoir alumni meeting this sat morning at Siglap South CC... Can't wait!
7 wanderers gathering at Sakura... Can't wait!!!

And so... In the last and final session of the TIPS course, we learnt about relationships.

There are 4 phases to a relationship and they are "Getting started", Development, Maintenance and Termination. Most of us will not have a problem with the "Getting Started" stage as it is the basis of each relationship. However, most of us might have a problem with the development and maintenance of a relationship. The development of a relationship will decide how far you regard a person (as a close friend or an acquaintance) and when you go pass that stage, it is how you maintain this relationship that determines its future.

Sometimes, I really don't know which direction each friendship is heading because you don't know how the other party is feeling or thinking and sometimes paranoia kicks in to make matters worst. Sometimes the other party seems to treat you differently compared to the past and you read it as a friendship going downhill. I guess it all depends on how much you trust this friendship and how much you treasure it that helps in the development. During the discussion at TIPS, the facilitator was saying that if somehow one starts to ignore you or becomes hostile to you all of a sudden, just let go of that friendship and end it nicely. Because there is no point holding on to it and make your life miserable just because that person doesn't seem to want to carry on with the friendship anymore. Yes, true if its an acquaintance. But then again, what if its a friend whom you really treasure a lot? Someone who has been with you through thick and thin, someone who has been your best pal for a very long time? It ain't easy letting go of this friendship if things become worst.

Oh well... I guess its time to change ourselves if our attitude and character is not helping a friendship at all. Of course, a person should not change himself just to fit in or please a someone else. However, if he is behaving like a childish idiot, its high time that he wake up his idea and change for the better (not directing this to anyone at all...). Sigh... I guess I'm holding on to friendship too tightly and I'm not giving myself any breathing space. But I seriously don't want to give up any friendship that I treasure. Oh well, like what I've said, I will just have to have faith in them and not worry... Trust in God is also important...

Anyway, Choon, Chase and I met up today for a meal before Chase enters the forbbiden land this coming Friday. We went to the Singapore Art Museum to take a look and the art pieces there are definitely intriguing and interesting. Each art piece left us deep in thought. Of course, me, being the one who is not artistically(if there is such a word) inclined, just enjoyed the beauty of the artpieces, not so much of the thinking. But its definitely an interesting trip.

Met my family at Marina Square after that. Somehow, it feels as though half of Singapore has decided to visit Suntec City today for the IT fair. Its scary to see people squeezing through the over head bridge leading to Suntec. For a moment there, I thought the bridge was going to collapse... Its so crowded that the queue started from escalator which leads to the over head bridge from City link mall (or even way before that...). Luckily there wasn't stampede or anything... muahahaha...

Alrighty, service at church today is definitely very enlightening. Great great great!!! =) Shall end here by posting a few photos taken today...

In my previous TIPS workshop session, I have learnt how to be a good listener, speaker and how to be assertive. And it was then that I realised that my smile can actually scare people.............. I was asked to show the group how I will open a conversation with a complete stranger using the skills which I've learnt. It turned out that my smile sort of intimidated the guy... haha... I've got nothing to say. Some people don't mind the smile while somewill suspect that you are up to something when you smile. I guess I am who I am and I must learn to do the right things at the right time.

Anyway, we played this message relay game during that session and the result was hilarious. This is the orignal message:

Mary's mother has 3 dogs. They are named Piggie, Winnie and Chicky. Piggie and Chicky are males while Winnie is a female. Last week, Mary took Winnie and Chicky for a walk in the park. One hour later, Mary realised that Winnie was missing.

The last person received the message as:

Mary has 3 dogs. They are named Beaky, Vicky and Chinny. Beaky and Chinny are males while Vicky is a female. One day, marry took beaky for a walk.

Hmmmmmm.... The power of communication. The lesson learnt is that we must not be afraid to ask again if we are not sure about the message we have received. If somehow, we did not listen to the message or orders given to us properly, it may give rise to many problems which we might not be able to handle.

Before leaving, I must say that I'm proud to be a MERIDIAN!!! WOOTS!! The previous batch did extremely well for the A levels! 300 plus triple A students and 80 plus 4 As students. Double the number we had for the previous batch!! Woohoo!!! So proud of my juniors =) Meridian rocks my socks! Oh well... Thinking about how my juniors did and looking through last year's college annual, it kind of made me miss my college days a lot... Sigh sigh...

I love my family to bits! There will be never ending drama with my mother's sisters around. Recently, they have been discussing about my uncle's business and that i guess that topic will stay for quite some time. Their animated speeches will never fail to crack me up. My poor cousins have to listen to the stories over and over again because my aunt will repeat the same speech to all 4 sisters... How how interesting... woot!!

Today's session with my counsellor has been a very enlightening one...

In life, whatever you do, you will definitely have a role to play. What is your role? Once you have identified your role in a particular organisation or situation, things will definitely be much better for you because you will then know what you have to do and what you should do. Not having a well defined role can cause you to burn out easily because you will then be doing stuff which you should not be doing...

Also, in whatever situation you are placed in without have a choice, you have to accept it and learn to work things out from there. One should not dwell into the bad side of things and indulge in self-pity because one cannot achieve anything out of it. It will only make you feel more depressed and this leads to health problems. There might be certain things which you will have to do which is not part of your job scope, e.g. regimental duty. Treat them as little spects of dust which you will have to do because your job and being a soldier comes together as a package.

In this world, there will be many losses. Losses in terms of a loved one, a relationship, material things and many other stuff. Whenever you lose something, you will have to fill up that void immediately and not leave it there and let it grow. Making yourself busy with work will not help because at the end of the day, once you are free, these sad thoughts will flow back again and it will be in a larger magnitude. Instead of ruminating about it, why not find a solution to it or even try to close this chapter?

Through the many phases of life, you will meet many people. Friendships are forged between some of them. Some might be transition friends and some might even be your very close friends. In the working society, people come, people go. When a friend leaves, it does not mean that your friendship ends there unless you regard the person as a transition friend (friendship made out of convenience...). If you really do treasure the friendship, keep in contact with them instead of mulling over the "loss" because the person is still living and breathing. Don't fear but trust.

This is what I have learnt today. How inspiring.... =)

Chinese New Year has been interesting this year. I had my reunion dinner at home with my parents and my brother. I quiet one. Then as usual, I would go to my 4th aunt's (mother's sister) place for another round of reunion dinner before heading home to usher in the new year.

This year, my family headed to my uncle's house (mother's brother) first before proceeding to my father's side. Its really a very quiet gathering this year... But my cousin's house is very very nice! It has a great scenary of the sea and the design is great! I've taken quite a few photos at her house. Can't resist such a huge opportunity... haha... Here are a few of them...

CNY holidays are over. Wonder what other days are there for me to look forward to before I ORD. Time seems to fly if you are unaware of what you are doing and it seems to crawl when you are observing every minute and every second, waiting for that faithful day to come.... haiz... Wake up Jeremy! wake up! Its coming... its coming... Thank God I have a wonderful family and great friends to bring me through each day...

Happy valentine's day everybuddy!


I was told that i shouted and mumbled in my sleep last night... This is so freaky... For the past few nights, I was unable to sleep/sleep well at all... I'm suffering from insomnia and its kind of getting on my nerves because I seriously need to sleep... The lack of sleep is killing me... argh... Hopefully things will be better for me as each day pass..

CNY is coming! yippee!

Yet another week has passed. Nat nat and ao ao has ORDed, leaving me with these words... "Your time will come" Oh yea it will... Gotta be patient won't I?

Anyway, I bought 2 books last week when I was out with my cousins, "Asking for trouble: Tales of Saffy and Amanda" and "Table for Three: More tales of Saffy and Amanda". These 2 books are a must read!! Its extremely hilarious!!! They were the first books which actually made me laugh out loud while reading it and I just can't stop smiling while reading. Its basically the story of Jason Hahn and his oh so dramatic life with his flat mates who never fail to amaze me with their weird antics... Haha... How I wish my life will be something like that... It will never be boring (though it can get annoying sometimes...) Oh well... Its definitely a must read for people who needs humour in their life =)

I bought another 2 books yesterday while I was out with Andre. "Scribbles from the Same Island" and "Final Notes from a Great Island" by Neil Humphreys. I've only started the first one and so far its quite interesting. Woohoo! I guess most of my time will be occupied by these two books for the time being.

Andre and I went shopping for New Year clothes yesterday and it was a very fruitful one. We managed to get something despite the crowd that was there. Oh well... Chinese New Year is coming and I am so looking forward to it. Woohoo! I'm getting this cny feeling man... baking pineapple tarts again and again and again...

To end off this entry, I shall post photos of the 7 wanderers! Really miss them alot and truly regret that I did not spend much quality time with them in the past... shite me...

Dearest Mr Eric Chua. Our PE Teacher who inspire us to name ourselves the 7 wanderers...

I went shopping with my cousins yesterday. Got a new pair of shoes!! (My old one had officially disintegrated to nothingness... ) So yay!!! Also bought 2 shirts from Samuel and Kelvin, 2 books by Jason Hahn and a CD... I spent a lot yesterday... But its okay! Everything was sponsored by my dad! yippee!! It was very very crazy yesterday! Shan't type out what happened in order not to throw face....

Last night, I dreamt that I was in my grandma's home... It was new year's eve and I was like feeling all sad that no one turned up for reunion dinner since my grandmother had passed away. My brother and I were at the kitchen preparing for something and it was all weird. I told my mum about the dream and she said that we have to pay respect to my grandmother on the eve. Which explains what my brother and I were doing in the kitchen in my dream. Anyway, this I'll be going to my uncle's house on the first day of chinese new year. Shall see how different this year would be...

Nat and ao ao will be ording this week... Haiz... sad that they are leaving (lesser company you see...) but am definitely happy for them! At last, they are released from their service... haha... Oh well... I guess once dre and mi mi leaves, life at work will be more and more boring (although will still be others it will be different)... Haiz... haiz... haiz... They say that my time will come... but how long will it take for my time to come?! (looks at ORD countdown timer at sidebar...) Haiz... I need to relax... I seriously do...

I've gained 1 kg... yippee!

I want to ORD...

I love this song alot! This song is called "Butterfly" arranged and sung by a vocal a cappella group called Rajaton. But in this video, the song was sung by the Williams College Ephlats. I like the voice of the Sop solo in this video. Very nice and beautifully sung! Woots! Sweet sweet butterfly...

For the past 2 weekends, I've been trying out new recipes with my oven! I think I'm addicted to baking -_-" But it is really fun, spending time baking cakes and cookies for frens and family to eat! Its like some big charity event (so my mother said........ haha... Anyway, I tried baking pound cake and cheese cake last week. This week, i tried oreo cheesecake and chocolate chocolate chip muffins while my mum made pineapple tarts.They all came out okay. Not too bad i would say =)) Yea yea! Here are some of the photos of the things I've baked.

The muffin looks disgusting (due to my untrained hands..... =x) But its still taste alright. The light brownish colour on the top is due to the sugar I've sprinkled on the top to create a crispy top. It looks uneven because I didn't know how much would be enough... haha... I'm not very good at agarism... So yea... And Andre, it doesn't taste like peanut cake! haha...

So its almost one year since my Grandma had left us. Time has indeed passed by so quickly that it seems only weeks since it happened. Tomorrow will be some ceremony at a temple to commemorate my grandma's first death anniversary. Hopefully all will go well. Yea, although I'm a Christian, I'll still take part in the ceremony as a sign of respect for my grandmother. Its the least I can do to make up for the wrongs I've done in the past. It kinda dawn on me that this coming Chinese New Year would be so different. In the past, my family would go down to my grandmother's place for reunion dinner on new year's eve. We would just be there at Serangoon gardens, eating a sumptous dinner prepared by my grandmother. Although the whole family wasn't around, it is still great to be there because I kinda grew up there. When I was very very young, my family would go down to her place immediately and we will help with the spring cleaning (although I wasn't of much help... haha...). Then before we left, we will help place sweets and new year goodies on the large brown table beside the television. On the first day of new year, we would go back to my grandma's place in the late morning. All my aunts and uncles would be there, trying to remember whether they had given us red packets. Then they will start playing blackjack and mah jong in the afternoon while I will be in the bedroom with my other cousins, talking and stuff. That's the typical Chinese New Year for me... How will it be like for me this year? Will there even be reunion dinner with my father's side? Where will we be going on the first day of chinese new year?

I just feel really stupid. Its only when something is gone forever, that I start missing it so much. I so want to go back to my grandmother's place again. But I heard that my uncles would be selling away her place. Everything is just so different. Lately, I've been thinking about my grandmother quite alot and I don't know why... haha... Oh well... I will just have to move on won't I? I'm just glad that I am blessed with good memories which I can keep. But can I go back and relive these memories again?

What have I cooked so far? Last Saturday, I made Macaroni and cheese at home!! It's nice but then, after some time, it can be quite tiresome because its so cheesy... But I like it... Then again... Self praise is no praise. So I'll have to let my guinea pig volunteers do the testing when I see them. Here are the pics of my mac and cheese!!

I'm baking cookies now!! Not my normal chocolate chip cookies though. I'm trying something new, called the peanut butter duo chocolate chip cookie. The chocolate chips are actually milk chocolate and white chocolate striped chips (I didn't realise that until when I opened the packet...). The turn out is not bad. I've tried one or two, needs more sugar. Therefore, I'm going to bake more tomorrow!!! Anyway, here are the pics of my wonderful cookies... hehe...

I long to go back to school. I miss school. Meridian, Montfort, I miss them all.
I miss having to sit in lecture theatres with my friends, listening to lectures and trying to understand what the lecturers are saying.
I miss tutorials, where 7 of us will sit together and listen to our tutors teach.
I miss having to do homework.
I miss having to study for tests and exams.
I miss singing in both Meridian and Montfort Choir.
I miss performing in front of an audience in a choir.
I miss the times where we had to prepare for SYF.
I miss the times we had to prepare for concerts and performances.
I miss the times where I did crazy things with my frens after choir practices in Sec sch.
I miss my freedom to do what I want.

I hate this fear that is lingering within me.
I hate this feeling of nothingness within me.

I'm thankful for having people who loves me, friends, family
I'm thankful to be blessed with so many wonderful things in my life

I want my life back.

I must be patient but 11 months seems too long...

Father, give me the strength to carry on! Bless my frens, my family and I... Bless us all... Amen.

Struggling Christians who are in doubt and despair often ask in desperation:
- where is God in this situation?
- where is the reality of Christ?
- where is the wisdom that I lack?
- where is the strength that I need?
- where is the answer that I seek?

The real answer may seem shockingly simple and untrue: it’s all within you. Once you are connected to God’s unbounding resources, all good things are within your reach.

From www.lighthouse.org.sg

You've heard of the Power Rangers... You've heard of the Gransazers... Now... I'm proud to present to you....

The Seafood Pontoon Pongcrupchang Rangers!

Aren't they cute?!! From left to right, we have Bobby ao ao (as in ow ow), sandren techno, sandren copa, true sandren aude, sandren xia mi. There's Lance Corporal Paranoia too! But he is the photographer for this pic... So yea... Anyway, why are they named as the SPPR? Because the name sounds cute and catchy.... I've actually planned to type out their biodata with their individual photos here, but I need time to think man... muahahahaha....

Went blading with dre and syahmi today. To sum it all in one sentence, I suck at blading... woohoo! I need to practice more man... If not... ... ... you know? you know...

Alright, I shall carry on watching my lovely samsoon (KOREAN DRAMA!!!). Although I've watched it before on Channel U, somehow, I feel like watching it again... wahahahaha...

"Shut up Lance Corporal Paranoia!"

At last I get to access blogger and sign in to MSN. Phewy... Sigh... As usual, I don't feel like going back to work tomorrow. The feeling of not wanting to go back to work is irritating the hell out of me now... Sigh...

Just came back from my cousin's house. I stayed over at their place yesterday and boy were we crazy or what. We slept at 2+ am yesterday night because we were playing board games. At first we were playing this game called "Game of the Year" which (till now) we don't understand how the game works. We took turns to read the instructions for the game and gave up in the end because there was a much more fun game called "Mad Magazine". My cousin had been describing the game to us so excitedly a few years back and finally we get to play it together! woohoo!! Its definitely a very very crazy game. We laughed so hard and made so much noise that we woke our aunt... -.- Yea yea! definitely had a lot of fun with them around!

I met andre yesterday afternoon too! He was teaching me how to roller blade. I managed to roll all over the place and still remain intact (with no arms detached or any thing like that) thanks to andre. Its definitely very very fun to be blading all over the place!!! Oh well... Hopefully one day I can get the hang of those wheely things... hopefully... muahaha....

As for today, I've finally ran after a long break from exercising. My cousins and I went to Choa Chu Kang Stadium for a jog since they had not run for a very very long time too! Whoa... It felt great to run again. A release of negative energy! woohoo!! After that, we went to play badminton with me losing all the way... yea... I so love my family! Its always interesting to see/hear my aunts gossip with my mum, giving each other the latest updates of family business and stuff... haha... Its just so so funny! =) How thankful I am to be blessed with great friends and family!


"Let december come let december come let december come..."

Welcome to 2007! New year, new beginning, I say!

Time has past extremely quickly... Its 2007 already but I feel like its just any other ordinary day in 2006. No diff... Sigh... Oh well... Hopefully 2007 will end soon too! I want to be a civilian!!

Class gathering on 30 dec was quite okay. The number of people who turned up is more than half the class ( 16 people!). But then again, it doesn't feel class gathering-ly because everyone stayed in their own cliques as usual. The girls definitely change alot ever since they entered army. As for the guys, we just look desperate for the day to come. I'm quite sad that not everyone from my clique turned up though. Was really looking forward to see them because it has really been quite some time since we last met. But its okay. I guess there will be more chances for us to meet up in 2007!

On New year's eve, I went to catch a move with sandren. Night at the Museum is so so so funny!!! Oh my gosh! Its really a very nice show! woohoO!! We managed to see the fireworks behind the blocking trees and the tall memorial thingy. Nice fire works but the view was spoilt by the tall trees... Oh well... better than nothing.

As for today, I met up with Ting Yi and Joel. We walked around Vivocity today and we found lots of restaurants! The food there is quite expensive though. We were talking about how our taste changed as we grew up. While we were in school, fast food restaurants like Macs and KFC are like treats to us and are like places we hang out. Now that we have all graduated from JC and are doing our individual stuff, we tend to frequent expensive restaurants and stuff. Even our taste on clothes change. The way we spend money is as if money grow on trees. Wahahaha... I guess its time for us to control a little.

Hmmm... I guess I'm quite relieved that 2006 has past. Many many things happened in 2006 which has changed me emotionally and spiritually. I had to deal with a change in environment and culture after entering the army, I had to recover from my grieving of my grandmother's death, I had to deal with people who are older and of higher authority than me, I had to train myself physically to pass IPPT so that I won't have to go for recourse. Wow... Its like a roller coaster ride for me man... Somehow I feel so different (In the bad sense)... I've became more timid... Sigh... My counselling sessions definitely help but I will just have to pluck up the courage to do what I'm supposed to do because the mental block is in me and the only person who can removed that mental block is me. So I guess I'll have to work on that this year...

2006 is definitely not all bad for me... I managed to get good results for my A levels, I got into Log Branch, the place where I truly enjoyed myself in my stay in Tekong, I performed for MJChoir's concert in the alumni item, made good friends in camp, open up myself into one crazy guy with a screw loose, I passed my IPPT which means that I need not recourse, went to KOREA (SO EXCITING!!!), outings with cousins and friends, and long breaks which served as rest points for me to recover from the mental torture in camp. I've overcomed one of my mental blocks (which i still need to build on to fully recover from it), and yea, all these wonderful things that happened to me just serves as a reminder for me. That having Faith in God is really important. Throughout the year, I've been praying very hard for most of these things and God granted me with what I asked for. I'm very touched and grateful for all that I am blessed with. Faith, indeed, can move mountains!

Since this is the first day of the new year, I pray that God will bless each and every one of you out there with a wonderful new year! Put your past behind you and start anew... woohoo!!!